Anyone else have any regrets from their pregnancy/birth?
I cant stop crying right now. I dont know why. I just watched the season finale of The Kardashians and they showed Kourtneys birth. I remember someone asking me if I wanted pictures of the birth when I was pushing and I yelled I just wanted the baby out, so we dont have any birth photos. If I could do it over again, I would have hired a birth photographer.
Im sure Im probably just going through some pp blues or emotionalism, but all of a sudden Im flooded with feeling of sadness because we are not planning on any more kids. I spent this whole pregnancy stressed and upset and scared of the birth and never really got to enjoy being pregnant. Because I got pregnant 3 months pp with my son after just about the worst pregnancy/birth possible because of the high risk nature and him being diagnosed with down syndome and an intestinal blockage and then wondering if he would ever make it to his first birthday for the first 4 months. I was so scared to be pregnant again and so soon. I didnt do a baby shower because I felt it selfish to have a baby shower when I just had a baby. I didnt do any maternity photography this time around because I didnt have time between buying a home, moving, overwhelmed with work/financial problems and I think a part of me didnt think I could vbac, so I was scared. I never got to enjoy being pregnant, now Im a little sad that I will most likely never have a chance to actually enjoy a pregnancy.
I am happy I got the birth experience I wanted. I do wish I had pictures. I guess I just have to learn to let go.
Anyone else dealing with similar issues... again I think its just the hormones talking but Im not sure what to do.