I'm up and it's technically Monday already, so I figured I'd get the new chat thread going!
This is my week. One way or another, I *will* be birthing this baby this week. I'm 41w2d right now. Kind of weird knowing that for sure baby will come this week.
I'm still totally hoping/praying/sending good thoughts that labor will spontaneously start on its own in the coming days, but if it doesn't, I don't know when I should actually try things to get it moving. I was originally going to go through the list of activities my midwife has all day Sunday, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I had thought I'd aim for Sunday because I could try them, and then if they didn't take, I could wait a few more days, then try them again closer to deadline (42 weeks is the last my midwife can legally attend a homebirth with me). But it didn't feel right at all. So... I opted not to. But now, I don't know what to do. Do I try for Tuesday? Then if it doesn't work, I can always wait again until Friday? (Saturday is 42 weeks for me, so it has to be by then or I'll lose my midwife). Gah. I hate the pressure of time.
Tonight I've had some random contractions, but nothing timeable or regular or anything. *sigh* But hey... there's another one *tinyglimmerofhope*
Princessjules -- So sorry you're feeling so horrible on top of not being able to sleep!!
And... gah... now I can't remember anything else from the last thread to comment on it.
Trying to figure out if I should go sew. I have one newborn diaper very close to being finished (was going to finish it the other day, but it was my totally weepy/bawling day and one thread broke and I had a complete breakdown over it... so I had to just walk away for a while! ;) )... but I don't think I plugged in the baby monitor in dd4s room. The older three are spending the night at MILs. Would be a good night to have a baby, I say. (but, I'm pretty sure I've said that for the past three or four weeks...!)



I just tell him I will do my best.
He just started STTN despite allergies, and then my insomnia kicks in. Yay.


I'm working with affirmations and trying to remind myself to calm and center every time one of these fears comes up...but still they keep coming up, and coming up, and coming up...
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