I know everyone feels regret when they blow something that's important to them. But maybe it doesn't stop them cold for days on end?
Example, I spent a lot of time yesterday filling out multiple applications for open jobs with the State of California, tweaked my resume to make it more specific. It took a couple hours and I was pleased with the work I did. I made screen prints of each job posting to keep in my job hunting file, and I'm pretty sure I stapled them all to one of the applications. I didn't put them in our mail box, I drove them to the Post Office drop box.
I'm SO disappointed and embarrassed (some HR person is going to read the application and wonder what the heck I was thinking). And angry with myself. This sort of thing happens all the time, where, when I make a mistake (normal part of life) this wave of feelings wash over me, and the feelings are literally painful. It feels so bad, it's become my habit to withdraw and avoid the subject. And the worst part is I just don't try to do things anymore, because I don't want to experience that painful regret. I mean, I really beat myself up.
It's only been in the past few years I realized the feelings are out of proportion to the issue. I try to reason myself through it, tell myself it does NO GOOD to let some regret stop me dead in my tracks. I mean, I've withdrawn from Life quite a bit, and it's affecting (effecting?) my whole family. It's a major reason we're declaring bankruptcy and are leaving this house.
So I'm thinking I need to find a way to deal with the horrible feelings in the moment. The panic, "Oh my God, I did it again!"
Have you experienced this? Have you successfully dealt with your feelings, so they don't keep you from acting?