Went in for first appointment today at 7 weeks. The doctor did the routine ultrasound for new patients. We had a previous ultrasound at 4w6d (to establish intra-uterine location), so that provided a point of comparison. The baby size was only measuring 3mm, which is too small for what it should have been at this point. There might have been some cardiac activity, but she said it could have been my own blood or something. She also identified a subchorionic hemmorhage. I have had no bleeding whatsoever. So, my diagnosis, missed miscarriage.
I am totally kicking myself. This time around, I trusted in my body. Even though it was my sixth pregnancy (only 2 live births), I thought, I can do this! I have done it twice before! I am not going to stress. I did not even think to ask for progesterone supplements. My firstborn was conceived with a fertility doc, and I took supplements, so I also requested them with the second. This time, I didn't even think about it. Totally kicking myself, because that is the only difference between the failed and successful pregnancies (except for the ectopic, for which there was no progesterone, but there was a heartbeat, just in the wrong location).
I know there are cases where people go in at 7 weeks, and see something similar, and are worried, but go in the next week, and everything is fine. But, when you have a previous ultrasound to go by, I see this as pretty much hopeless. Did a lot of grieving today. It's going to be a long road to get back to square one. And, haven't had to do this in a while, so I'm a bit out of practice.
Anyway, I don't want to be a downer for those of you who are having your first, or who have never experienced miscarriage. I think you should totally continue to be excited and stress-free! I think there are just those of us who are more prone to these things... and, after all, I am 38 now!!
Best wishes to everyone else for a happy and sticky pregnancy!! I will update when it is all confirmed.
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