I insisted to only see a midwife this time around. There are some tests I wanted to refuse and felt like a mdwife might be a better fit this time.
I was able to decline the pap smear and was going to not have the pelvic exam done but didn't stand my ground. I don't understand why was I afraid to decline one at that point. I'm such a chicken. It's my body and I'm really pissed at myself for not standing up to what I feel was right for me.
Anyway, the midwife had mentioned that there are 3 things she insists on - the initial bloodwork, diabetes test and group B strep test. I was going back and forth about the diabetes test but thought if they let me just eat my regular breakfast I can do it. I'm not drinking the nasty artificial glucola. Supposedly I would have to come early with an empty stomach, have a blood draw, then go somewhere and eat breakfast, then come back (in I believe 4 hours). I'm not sure I'm comofortable with that.
I was also not sure about the genetic test but decided to do them. I was given a choice between the new test and the standard quad test and after being reassured the new test has less false positives (is that even true?) I decided for that one. I wasn't even told that my insurance doesn't cover it. I wish someone has told me about that prior the blood draw and not right before leaving the office.
I now wonder whether this is just another practice that works the exact same way as the doctors do, meaning little room for my wants and feelings and pushing procedures on patients without informing them first.
Sigh. Sorry for ranting. I guess I'm just really disappointed at my self. If that was a male OB I would feel super violated.
I know it's my body and my choice. But when they say - this MUST be done. They will most likely kick me out if I don't comply, right? I'm not comfortable around doctors. We don't otherwise use doctors and/or western medicine anymore.
If I could afford a home birth I would really go for it.