I lost my dad...
My father-in-law was killed in a motorcycle accident a week to the day after we found out we were pregnant. It broke both of our hearts. The accident was at the beginning of February in Kansas. We drove 500 miles there, grieving every moment. It was a horrible trip.
I felt so guilty for grieving because I knew our baby could feel my sadness. But a close friend and spiritual leader in our church encouraged me to not hold back, that it would only bring baby and me closer and help her to know me more intimately. I don't know if any of this helps, but please know that I'm praying for peace and comfort for you and your family during this extremely difficult time.
JoyofBirth - sending you many warm thoughts and wishes for comfort and peace right now. I am so sorry to hear about your dad and the way it's bringing up all of these other losses. Take good care of yourself right now and let yourself grieve in whatever way you need to. Hoping for beautiful health for you and your baby, too.