I guess I just need to know that there are other people like me out there.
I know this group is a mix of people who intentionally only had one child, those who happened to end up with only one through life's twists and turns, and those who desperately want(ed) another but are seeking a positive spin on life with an only. I guess it's the first bunch I'm appealing to.
I love DS with all my heart and soul - but he has totally and completely satisfied my desire for motherhood. I'm sure some of that is that he is, as DH says, four hands full! He's a bright, precocious, busy, fearless, tenacious dude - very sensitive, BIG emotions - alot going on!
Beyond that, though...I just can't see wanting to have another. I don't mind being pregnant - it's not that. It's true I don't know how we'd handle the finances, logistics, or have enough time for our marriage, but that's not the determining factor. I just feel like: WHY, oh why, would I want to do it?
It is so foreign a concept to me. I log onto the mothering community main page and see babies.babies.babies.babies!!! 4th babies and 5th babies, birth stories, DDCs, baby photos. I feel nothing, and then I feel bad, like there is something severely wrong with me. Don't I like being a mother? (Heck yes!) I'm even lucky enough to be a SAHM - shouldn't it seem like something I'd want to keep doing, since I love it and research it ad nauseum? But I'm good. I like every stage but have no desire to repeat it. The idea of more just feels incredibly strange to me...
Please know that I mean *ABSOLUTELY* no offense to mamas who want more than one, or have more than one. Props to you gals! I'm all for everyone doing what works best for them. This is just what works best for me, and I'd like to know I'm not crazy! (well...not because of this...)