I have always had a slender and athletic body, until age 21 when I went through some tough times and gained, a lot. Going from 125lbs to 200lbs in just 2 years was horribly traumatic. Finally after having enough, I worked hard and lost it all. Backing down to my comfortable 125-135 range. I've maintained this body for the last 7 Year's and enjoyed my energetic, healthy lifestyle.
Now, I weigh 143'ish give or take some water weight at 14 weeks and feel like I'm losing control again. Nothing fits me. I feel enormous. And my self esteem, confidence, and even social life has plummeted. I remember what it felt, at each pound gained, and each pound lost.
I know I'm traumatized and fearful of getting "fat" again. But I can't be alone. Someone somewhere out there must feel this too?
Dreading this. I, selfishly, don't want to gain another pound. How are the rest of you moving through these feelings?
Oh, and what the heck happened to my pretty skin!?? It's like an acne factory on my face and only getting worse. Im doing everything to help short of taking meds.
This is just cruel.