I am a first-time, stay at home Mommy to a beautiful, healthy 9 month old baby girl. We practice attachment parenting, co sleeping, baby wearing, and living life as eco friendly as we can. I love being a mother but I can't stop worrying about my own death. First let me say I am very healthy and have been checked for post partum depression by my midwife. I don't know if my worrying is normal or if I should see a counselor. Randomly, every couple of days I will be having a great moment with my daughter and all of sudden I feel worry about how her life would be if something happened to me. Who would take care of her like I do? Would my husband continue raising her the way we do now? Who would hug her and kiss her if she were sad and lonely? And then inevitable I begin to cry and then thank God for my baby and pray we all stay safe. Of course, I feel like a wreck and so silly for worrying but I am so scared something will happen to me, or both me and my husband, and my daughter would be without us. I have a wonderful family, and realistically if something did happen they would care for her and she would be loved and raised well. I know the reality is she would be okay but emotionally I do panic and worry. Is this normal? I feel strange bringing it up to my friends who are mothers so I ask all of you wise women for help. I feel my worrying is stealing away some of the best moments I am having with my baby. Any advice or just words of encouragement will be greatly appreciated. Thank you.