This is more of a vent than anything. One of my closest friends just had her 3rd baby today, a long-desired girl after 2 little boys. She has a wonderful husband, and this was a 3rd natural childbirth that went very much the way she wanted and planned. I am SO happy for them, and yet talking to her and hearing her joy has left me absolutely miserable.
Does anyone else ever feel this way? Obviously I know no one's life is perfect, and everyone has hard times no matter how great their life looks from the outside, but I'm having a moment of feeling like mine is so far from what I wanted it to be, and has been since the day my son was born. It makes me feel terrible, guilty, and like a very bad friend to feel jealous of them (never mind a bad mother for feeling unhappy in spite of having a healthy, wonderful child), but I can't seem to help it.