I too can't figure out what to say and kept typing then deleting.
TickleToes was right and so are you. That sadly some how the 2nd time it is different. That rather than being in limbo and not knowing what is going on, that sadly things feel familiar again. The first time I told no one. Kept it to myself. Now, if it fits into a conversation I feel like I need to tell everyone. It's weird.
Ectopic is also one of my biggest fears.
Take care of yourself.