Hi! I've been lurking for a while, and I know I'm not the only person with drama here, but I could use some help. (AmandaLynnH, Timesaway, I'm sending good vibes your way, and I hope your respective problem people get struck by laryngitis, but only when they're being jerks.)
I have PTSD due to rape trauma, and the current political season has been very triggering for me. For those of you who aren't familiar, being triggered is a involuntary response. It's not quite reflex, in that you can stuff it down and get to a safe place before losing your control, but it cannot be avoided. Two of my most effective coping mechanisms aren't so great during pregnancy (Lifting weights until I'm physically exhausted is one of them, and the other is smoking half a cigarette. That's not healthy anytime, but it makes me embarrassed in a way that derails the reaction. There are some studies indicating that nicotine can act as a SSRI, so that may be helping, I don't really know, but it's not a risk I'm willing to accept right now.)
That leaves me with walking briskly... but not to the point of physical exhaustion. And while I can totally do that while pregnant, I'm a bit self conscious about walking around all teary faced. I'm not showing yet, but I have a neighborhood where walking around crying would get noticed and the neighbors would come talk to me. It's wonderful that they care, but I don't know how to pass it off as nothing to worry about. Once I'm visibly pregnant, or even now, I suppose, I could just say I'm ok, its pregnancy hormones... but that's a little embarrassing too. I may be a delicate flower, but I'll be damned if I get treated like I'm not capable due to my pregnancy. That's just insulting to me.
Can anyone suggest some pregnancy safe high stress coping mechanisms? My midwife has offered to set me up with a social worker (I was also abused as a kid, and will not be passing that nightmare along), so I can ask for help next Friday, but until then, my best option is a complete media blackout, but that is no guarantee while I'm in public or at work.
Thanks for your help.