I guess I'm searching for validation or for someone to talk me down from the ledge
I am 2w1d PP. I had a traumatic birth- PP hemorrhage, lost a good deal of blood, became severely anemic and had to have two blood transfusions. I was very weak for my first week but have gradually improved and my hemoglobin level 5 days ago was 11.2- almost doubled what it was before! I honestly feel great. My lochia has nearly stopped within the past few days (tiny bit of dryish brown spotting left). Baby is sleeping 3 hour stretches at night and has a sort of sleep/wake schedule.
I've really been taxing my body this past week- yet still feel great. Cleaning my house, cooking (actual!) meals, laundry (running up and down 3 flights of stairs multiple times with laundry in tow), and taking all THREE children on public transportation 3 days out of the week. And homeschooling stuff. Taking walks with the kids. Life goes on, yk?
That said.. I was planning on returning to work on 12/1. Now I'm contemplating on returning on 11/1. I'll be 6 weeks, as opposed to 10. I honestly feel like I could go back sooner but if I need medical release there's no way I'd get it. Also.. my job does it's scheduling online through a website-program. People can drop their shifts- anyone can pick them up. I'd quite frankly love to pick up one or two a week until I go back to 30-40hrs/wk! Just to get back into the swing of things. My MIL has been begging to come watch the kids and the baby, and I have a baby who willingly takes bottles, a freezer with a few days of milk in it, and a breastpump. My job is not that demanding in the current season. I'm a tourist photographer- it's not tourism season, and we're not that busy. Take photos, print photos, sell photos, and do pretty much nothing in between each of those things.
And money is tight without my income. Sufficient, absolutely. But with holidays and birthdays (two december girls!) and winter heating expenses coming up- I'd love to start working sooner. I think working would be less stressful (on both my husband AND myself) than getting our heat shut off, no?