I am having a hard time deciding if I should buy a breast pump for when I have my new baby in April.
Back story- My son, who will be 5 when this baby is born, was breast fed, but stopped at only 5 months because my supply dried up almost instantly when there was a multiple extremely stressful situations within a week. I tried really hard to stick it out, but then he started losing weight, I gave him one bottle, and that was the beginning of the end. He just completely refused me after that, and in all honesty, I started resenting him for no longer wanting to nurse- something that was sooo important to me. Literally NO ONE I knew at the time had breast fed or really supported me, even my son's ped. It was horrible. In a desperate last attempt I bought a used pump in style on ebay and used that to try to at least give him EBM. I would sit there, pumping every hour, and just cry as I got maybe an oz if I was lucky. I stopped after about a month because it was making me more resentful towards my son that he wouldn't try and that I was getting so little. He happily drank formula and thrived on it. I want to mention though that in the beginning I had a HUGE supply and would get 12+oz extra after each feeding with a hand pump that had been given to me at the hospital. I know I was making my oversupply worse, but I started donating so I kept at it. One thing I always regretted was not saving that milk.
My fear is that somehow this will happen again this time, and so I need to stock up from the beginning. But then part of me wonders if I am setting myself up for failure by getting a pump before I know I need one. I will be a SAHM during the summer, but then will be back in college in the fall. So do you ladies think I should spend the $200+ dollars (a lot for us) on the pump, just use a $30 pump to start a stock pile from the beginning, or not use a pump at all and hope for the best?
Thank you in advance for your replies.