Not sure where to go with this. My youngest LO is 4 months old. I had two completely natural hospital births after two completely normal pregnancies. After the birth of my second daughter, my placenta wouldn't deliver. They took me in for a D/C and when I woke up, I was stunned to find out that they had had to perform and emergency hysterectomy. We are grateful I am alive and grateful by DD2 was perfectly healthy but a day doesn't go by when I don't grieve this. It was a shock, to say the least. I feel somewhat alone in the mommy community as this is rare but even more so in the natural mommy community that I love so much. Whether I like it or not, I would have been one of those failed homebirths-a hospital transfer at best, dead at worst. I am so happy for friends who are pregnant but am so sad I'll never carry another LO again. We were excited about having many more children. Anyway, anyone deal with this? Ever? Would be great to here others perspective. It certainly was incredibly traumatic. . .