A Saner TTC: Hunter's Moon - Page 7

[coati456]

Xerxella, I will definitely let you guys know what the doctor says. I am very anxious for my next appointment (a week from today). I keep googling every possible thing. I should probably stop. I have about 4 days left in my TWW. Ordinarily, I would be symptom spotting, but now all I can think about is test results.

Devilish and Xerxella, in my second cycle of TTC, my AF was super light. It was also 5 days late though so that wasn't the only unusual thing about that cycle. I suppose AF can be unusually light for all sorts of reasons, so there's no sense in worrying. Not that emotions tend to listen to reason

Sparklemaman, a book I've been reading "What to do when you can't get pregnant" does mention how some men see semen analysis results as an ego blow. My husband is just very sensitive and tends to blame himself unnecessarily.

Beingmommy, thanks for the encouragement!

[dakipode]

devilish: , I'm not sure what you're referring to. Good luck with your Clomid cycle!

beingmommy: how's the writing going? Thanks for checking in, it's nice to know we are on your mind. I take it all is well with you?

xerxella: I did end up using a Wondfo yesterday (11DPO), not even the slightest hint of a line so still expecting AF, maybe tomorrow.

sparklemaman: it was an exhibition game so it didn't really matter but it was fun and it actually gave me some inspiration for my story... I tend to get caught up in routine and when an opportunity arises for me to get out of the house I convince myself I should because it'll be good for me. And it usually is. Hope your little one is doing better and gets well soon!

How's everyone else doing? Is it just quiet around here because AF is visiting pretty much everyone here?

[Xerxella]

devilish - Good luck with the Clomid. So, today is day 2? How are you feeling? What exact monitoring are they doing? Is there an ultrasound? Multiple u/s-s? (The reason I'm asking is the doc was saying we would try Clomid next when I last got pregnant. So, I'm wondering how these things go.)

coati - I hope you get a surprise free baby while you're waiting for the doc's appointment.

dakipode - Sorry about the BFN. I always think the wait for af is the worst wait of all.

[GISDiva]

Originally Posted by dakipode 

How's everyone else doing? Is it just quiet around here because AF is visiting pretty much everyone here?

Dude, I'm just busy being all zen and s#%t in the middle of the TWW.    The Maca might be helping to even things out, I feel more even-keeled - nothing concrete, just a general overall feeling.  I seem to have slightly more energy too, but who knows, it's hard to measure those things.  I read in another thread that what I experienced last month might have been my body trying to overcompensate for a weak egg.  That makes more sense at least.

So anyway.  CD 22, 8-ish DPO.  I have no inkling either way...

Sorry for the BFN, Dakipode.  Hope everyone gets some answers soon, whatever they may be...

[beingmommy]

Originally Posted by GISDiva 

Dude, I'm just busy being all zen and s#%t in the middle of the TWW.    

Hee, GISDiva!  Fingers crossed for you.

Dakipode, sorry for the BFN.  Hope AF doesn't make you wait.  And yes, so far so good with me.  It is still so very early and with my past losses I feel fairly anxious but I am trying to just hold the space for hope.  How is your Nano going?  I actually stopped.  It was fun but it was getting stressful for me.  But I did get lots of new ideas AND a better appreciation for how I write so that was good.

Xerxella, sorry AF is being a little weird.  I had a lighter AF a couple months after my loss so maybe it's just a strange body thing?  

Sparkle, so sorry your DD is sick!  My DS was sick last week with a stomach bug. It was sad and worrisome at points. Hope your DD feels better soon! 

Devilish, good luck with the clomid!  Hoping this is your cycle.

Coati, like Xerxella said I hope you get a surprise free baby too before your appt.  But otherwise just breath in and out until that appt. I know it is so hard not to want to figure it all out. Hugs!.

JustJenny, Margo and Starfish sending you all good thoughts!

[Lidamama84]

Hi everyone!!!

AF is on her way out...CD 6 over here...just hanging out, staying busy. Finished my LLL application, so I'm an official leader now, and had an exam for a competitive process (that's public servant-speak for saying I'm trying to find a new job and had a test for one today)...ummm what else?? Not much...it's cold here already but no snow thank goodness!! I went up north to a friends baby shower last weekend with my younger DD, and she was such a good traveller!! She slept on two out of four plane rides!! Starting to get excited about making Xmas presents, too... I think this weekend I will take stock of what I have, make a list of things I want to make and buy anything I'm missing. And start crafting with the kids. I have Monday off because of Rememberance Day, so I will keep the kids home with me and we'll have a nice long weekend

[SparkleMaman]

Dakipode So sorry you're still in the waiting game. I agree, the wait and the unknown is the worst.

GISDiva and Coati Fingers Crossed!!

Good Vibes being sent your way (to all of you).

Beingmommy Glad you're feeling well and that DS is over his stomach bug, I have heard what's been going around is awful! My DD seems better this morning. It is Flu so we're (or more accurately she is) quarantined for a bit. Her fever peaked at 103.7, a little scary. It is now down closer to 101 without acetaminophen and she luckily seems to have no respiratory involvement. I thought I was so very clever yesterday, I had everything timed out just so and it seemed to work. I brought DD in for her appointment, was seen, diagnosed, quickly grabbed meds, got said meds into her and raced off to work (leaving her in the trusted and loving hands of my parents) just in time to make it for my 9:45 class. I felt guilty all day for not being with her, despite knowing my parents rock and there is no one who is better to her, and arranged to stay home with her today before hearing the saga of what happened after I left. When I got home I heard that she threw up the meds I got into her less than 30 minutes after I left (all over our kitchen table). She then proceeded to cry herself to sleep (She NEVER EVER naps, EVER) telling my Dad he was great but just "not as good as Mama." When I got home we had an evening of cuddling, which helped me feel slightly redeemed. Ah the Mama Guilt!! This is my first year working full time since she's been born, again she is 9yo. I have always worked, very part time, since she was 3 months old (I hold our family's health care benefits so it is out of necessity) but never this much and I have always had way more flexibility. I have never had to/felt the need to leave her sick before. I am realizing that this new role is a little more than I am willing to take on. I am so lucky and grateful for my parents!!

Warm wishes to everyone and Happy Friday!!!

[Xerxella]

GIS Diva - Good job being all zen and s@!$ !!! I'd ask you when you're going to test, but that wouldn't be all zen and ....

lidamomma - Welcome to the af-being-over club! :LOL Oh well, I hope you're growing a nice healthy egg right now! (Me, too!)

sparkle - Working full time just sucks. I've been full time for a year and a half now and HATE it. I liked being part time, but it's not to be right now. My DD takes it the hardest and never leaves my side when I'm home. It's hard, but you're a great momma. Don't let the mommy guilt get to you.

- beingmommy, dakipode and everyone else!

[dakipode]

Originally Posted by GISDiva 

The Maca might be helping to even things out, I feel more even-keeled - nothing concrete, just a general overall feeling.  I seem to have slightly more energy too, but who knows, it's hard to measure those things.

That sure sounds nice, feeling more even keeled, I could certainly use some of that. Maybe I should try maca.

Originally Posted by Lidamama84 

Hi everyone!!!
AF is on her way out...CD 6 over here...just hanging out, staying busy. Finished my LLL application, so I'm an official leader now, and had an exam for a competitive process (that's public servant-speak for saying I'm trying to find a new job and had a test for one today)...ummm what else?? Not much...it's cold here already but no snow thank goodness!! I went up north to a friends baby shower last weekend with my younger DD, and she was such a good traveller!! She slept on two out of four plane rides!! Starting to get excited about making Xmas presents, too... I think this weekend I will take stock of what I have, make a list of things I want to make and buy anything I'm missing. And start crafting with the kids. I have Monday off because of Rememberance Day, so I will keep the kids home with me and we'll have a nice long weekend

You do sound busy! Congrats on your LLL accomplishment and good luck with getting the new job.

4 plane rides: I hope you mean 2 going and 2 back, not 4 legs per trip, right? I refuse to do more than one layover anytime I travel. Years ago I always got the cheapest available and 2 stops really sucks.

Enjoy your long weekend!

beingmommy: I'm still having fun with NaNo though I'm starting to feel the pressure. It's that inner editor, she wants to make everything perfect before moving on to the next part of the story...

sparklemaman and xerxella: whether it's by choice or necessity I think you're both great for being working moms.

AFM: trying to be zen, still no sign of AF though. I don't want to get my hopes up again and I keep telling myself this is my longest LP yet because of the Clomid or maybe I've lengthened it through sheer willpower...

[beingmommy]

Fingers crossed for you Dakipode!  Forgive me if you have mentioned this before but have any of your docs talked about progesterone for you?  I was just curious as I had low progesterone mentioned to me the other day as a sometimes cause of recurrent miscarriages.  I started looking into it for myself (wondering if I should get some progesterone supplements STAT for this pregnancy) and the subject of LP length was a big part of it.  Short LPs can be very indicative of low progesterone.  It's become a non-issue for me as my LPs are unusually long but as you were mentioning short LPs I thought I would throw it out there.  One of the moms on a loss board I am on said she just was not getting pregnant until she start supplementing progesterone and then had to supplement even more it to keep the pregnancy.

[SparkleMaman]

Thank you, Dakipode and Xerxella!! I really needed your warm wishes and support. I am so very weepy this weekend!! It is difficult to keep things in perspective and find a balance. I am really trying to let go and accept that I cannot be Super Mama. I still want to be but know it is unrealistic. Good enough just has to be good enough

A good friend sent me a link to this article, I Left a Piece of Myself There: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/lindsey-mead-russell/new-moms_b_2090492.html

I thought some of you might enjoy it.

Congrats on completing the LLL Leader process Lidamama!!

Dakipode Fingers still crossed (toes too)!

Happy Weekend!

[Coquelicot]

Hello everyone, I like the idea of this thread !

We've been TTC no. 1 for 7 cycles now (in TWW now), and it's sometimes hard not to get stressed, paranoid, overwhelmed, etc.

So on the positive side of things, my doctorate is doing good and my realtionship with DH is very good too, albeit the few arguments we have here and there. I'm lucky to be healthy, generally very happy and having a great life in the present. I know I need to enjoy the journey, let go of expectations and find my zen. I know I have a lot to be grateful about.

Sending good thoughts to all on your journey to conceive.

[dakipode]

beingmommy: I have thought about progesterone supplementation but then decided to hold off and see what the doc says. It hasn't come up. Now I did read that Clomid can lengthen LP because it enhances the quality of the ovulation and therefore the amount of progesterone...

sparklemaman: I think having a guilty conscious is inevitable and a sign that you're an engaged parent. Yes, at some point you have to let go and take good enough or you'll drive yourself crazy. Thanks for the article link.

coquelicot: welcome! I hope you find that being a part of this community helps you stay sane through all the ups and downs of TTC.

AFM: still waiting. Pretty sure AF is coming though I haven't taken any more tests but my boobs have gone down and that usually means AF is due in the next couple of days... I am definitely looking forward to having a talk with my nurse, I hope she can answer my questions.

[beingmommy]

SparkleMaman, I meant to respond to your other post the other day.  Hugs!  It's really hard doing the balancing act and my hats off to all mamas who do any kind of work outside of the home!  Hang in there and like others said, don't let mama guilt get to you.  You have loving people caring for your DD while you are gone and it sounds like you have wonderful reconnecting when you get home.  She's a lucky kid!

Dakipode, good to hear about the clomid and progesterone.  And maybe bring it up as something to look into with your doc/the nurse.  I had not known anything about progesterone until the past few days but I thought I would throw it out there if it was of any help for you.  Sorry it feels like AF is coming.    Glad Nano is still fun!  I know it's so hard not to let the perfectionnist side take over for me too.  

Lidamama, congrats on becoming a LLL leader!  Woo!  So exciting!

Xerxella, sending vibes for good egg growing for you!

Still crossing my fingers for you GISDiva!

Hugs and hi to everyone else!

[coati456]

Thanks for the support everyone!

Dakipode, I think we are in the same boat right now. I'm pretty sure I can feel AF coming, and I am looking forward to seeing my doctor later this week.

Coqueliqot, welcome! I just finished my doctorate a year and a half ago. What area is yours in? Mine is in physical science.

[Xerxella]

Coqueliqot - Welcome!!!!!!

beingmommy/dakipode - I was on progesterone (Endometrim) for a few cycles after my losses. There was no indication of a progesterone deficiency, but after a few losses I'm willing to try anything, especially a GRAS drug.

dakipode and coati - I hope you both are wrong and it really isn't af coming. (But, I know it never works that way. We women really DO know what's actually going on with our bodies, even when we wish we're wrong.)

sparkle - I think you ARE supermom! But, I'm partial to working moms!

AFM - CD 8 here. Why does time seem to move so slowly? Things are starting to gear up, I guess. Not feeling very zen. Come on weekend....

[GISDiva]

Hi there, hope all are well and hanging in there!

Another working mom here.  :)  We have zero family here, so I am extra thankful for our awesome day care center and the fact that DS rarely gets sick.  DH actually brought up the amount of guilt I had when DS was small and wondered if I wanted to go through that again (you know, since he won't agree to let me work part-time *sigh*).  I think now that I see the other end of it with DS almost in school I can see that it turned out OK.  Of course not a day goes by where I don't wish I could just leave early or stay home for a day, but it is what it is.  He has learned *so much* there and has made such lasting friendships already at age 4, there are silver linings everywhere.

So anyway - I've been spotting since Saturday morning.  I have no idea what that means.  Saturday would have been about 10 dpo.  Usually spotting means full-on AF comes the next day, but as of this morning, I wouldn't exactly call it "started".  Yet another cycle that doesn't look like any other.  Perhaps my body is trying to lengthen its LP and just isn't quite there yet?  I don't think with this much spotting I'm pregnant, I really don't.  I had a little pity party on Saturday night, but after that I felt really, really calm about the whole thing.  Like, *unusually* calm.     I certainly don't feel like someone who should have PMS either, so I'm pretty darn confused, let me tell you.  Not enough to waste a test though.  ;)  I am certainly keeping the progesterone thing in the back of my mind and will give the Maca a few more tries to see what happens.  I have to keep reminding myself that it's only been four months, it's silly for me to get too worked up about it.  It's just hard not to feel rushed with our "advanced age".  

Oh, and I don't know if you all remember, but I think I mentioned once that there was a woman in my local mom's group that got her IUD removed the same time I did.  She announced her pregnancy the night before I started spotting.  I joked with a couple of friends of mine that my body just couldn't handle being pregnant the same time as her, everything is a competition for who has it worse.  Yes, very mean of us to say, will have to readjust my karma this week...   I did congratulate her, that counts, right?  Right?

And welcome Coqueliqot!

[dakipode]

Quick question: which do you prefer for the new thread: Beaver's Moon or Frosty Moon?

I'll do personals later. Must go to bed. Tired.

[Xerxella]

dakipode - At first I thought frosty because of the connotations of beaver, but actually I think maybe those connotations are a good thing! A beaver moon at least makes us think of where everything's going on, but a frosty moon sounds decidedly unsuccessful. (Deep thoughts, I know.)

GISDiva - You're a better woman than I! I couldn't even talk to my cousin's wife at the latest family party. She "accidentally" got pregnant with her first child at 38 before her and the cousin were married and she's due when I was due with my last loss. I just stare at her angrily. Not very zen of me, right? By the way, I never cosider an HPT a waste. At least it gives you a definitive answer of where you are right then.

AFM - I got to start the OPKs last night. I don't know why I bother except it gives me something to do. I ovulate at about the same time every month (cd 15) and always have pretty good signs so I always know when I'm ovulating. I guess I like the definitiveness of the stick agreeing with everything else. We're trying a new method this month. DH really isn't an every day (or every other day or every third day) sort of guy. Really he's more of a once a weeker. So, we're holding off until cd 13 with a week wait beforehand. Hopefully, there will be enough swimmers to get there and get the job done. (Although, I worry about the quality of the swimmers that have been sitting around for a week, but I guess you can't have it both ways.) Was that all TMI?

[GISDiva]

I don't think anything is TMI on the Trying to Conceive boards, no worries Xerxella!    And we have the same husband, I think next month we need to try something similar.

So.  No spotting when I woke up this morning.  In a normal cycle (if there is such a thing anymore) AF would come Wednesday or Thursday.  So I will have an answer either way by, say, Friday I think.  Still very calm about the whole thing, it's creepy.  *haha*

I vote Frosty Moon, just because it started getting frosty here in Wisconsin just yesterday.