I want to share something with the group. I know this will sound insane, but a few weeks ago I went to see a spiritual guide/medium. Right? I know. Everyone who thinks that's cray-zee should probably stop reading now, FYI. ;)
A friend recommended this to me, and based on how much I love and trust this friend, I went. Among the many things involved in our conversation, the guide, Page, had a lot to say about my son. I told her nothing about the birth, just that I had a child who was (at the time I saw her) 15 months old. She said - you didn't birth the way you wanted, did you? And I said no. I didn't. I planned it one way, and it came about in a totally opposite way.
She said, your son is whispering to me, "She doesn't realize it yet, but I already taught mom a big lesson." And then, as I left her place, Page said, "I know this sounds weird but your son keeps saying to look at your phone. He wants you to look at it. That's all. I don't know why."
So I flipped on my phone and this quote appeared on a facebook post on my phone. Synchronicity. I think the universe is trying very hard to help me heal and to realize that the birth was a gift, not a curse. This was the quote:
I have come to drag you out of yourself, and take you in my heart. I have come to bring out the beauty you never knew you had and lift you like a prayer to the sky ~Rumi