I don't even want to admit this, but I'm more anonymous here than anywhere else in my life...and I just feel like I need to try and work through some things out loud.
I'm so miserable. I'm sick all day, every day for almost a week now - and I'm not even 6 weeks pregnant yet. I know that I could have weeks or months left of this. I can't eat, so I'm hungry and weak. I can't leave the house, can barely interact with my children and am so lonely.
I'm regretting the decision to become pregnant. How is that possible? This was a 2+ year decision and planning before we tried, miscarried and got pregnant again. It's not an accident by any means. So why do I now wish I didn't make this choice? Because I'm so sick...and miserable. I get it.
I've never had morning sickness like this before...I really don't want to take meds to help, especially in these super formative weeks of development. I could never forgive myself if something went wrong. My discomfort is part of being a good mama, right?
I just want to know if anyone else is struggling...it would help me so much to know I'm not the only newly pregnant mama who isn't jumping for joy.