This will be my fifth and my oldest dd is already 8. I know a lot of people probably already think that our baby making days are over. Back in the day we said we would have 6 or 7 but then I was diagnosed with a severe thyroid problem that left me thinking I was done. For all those years I really didn't have the desire or interest to have anymore. The past year though we started talking about it again and how we could still have those two other kids we wanted. I'm not getting any younger and my health is pretty good right now so I was thinking it's now or never.
I told my DH how I thought maybe I made a mistake and I think it comes from the whole PG really feeling foreign right now. I had 4 kids in 5 years so between pregnancies and nursing my body was kind of used to it. I feel like I'm starting over again just this time it's not that exciting. My oldest is 13 and says things like,"by the time the baby is 5 I will be almost 19". My girls grew up together so they feel like after that baby comes it will be "life part two". I don't know if that makes sense. They are excited for the new baby though. I'm also guilty because of the quality of just everyday life. I feel I'm not getting as much done in general and the maintenance of the home is going down hill which makes me feel even more down.
Wow...his is getting long lol....
Lastly, I really don't know how I'm going to break the news to family. Mainly DH's family because mine is non exisistent. I've told 3 friends , two of them were happy the other one was like, " was that an accident?"
Anyhow I do hope and believe that happier times await us. We just need to hang in there.