I am new to this forum and have joined in need of some moral support from mums who have been ther, done that and come out the other side ....
I have a 5 year old boy who i have brought up with attachment parenting principles, co sleeping, long term breastfeeding, lots of carrying, playing together etc ...... although i went away from what felt right for ten months and went to full time work when he was 1 .... i shortly after became pregnant and had a daughter when he was 21 months ,
we have our good days when they play together but his moods and emotions recently are getting more challenging and he admits that he often feels like he wishes he was the only one ..... he uses negative behavioural ways to get my attention. my daughter not 3 wants more and more of my attention having been quite laid back and easy going and giving ... she is developing some stubborn / persistant ways that really wind my son up and they end up being so feisty with each other
i am home schooling them .....
I am feeling trashed ..... Daddy works hard ...... the other members of my family are very busy ...... mummy helpers are few and far between ,,,,,, i know i need to be on top of things and well in myself to be a good mum ..... i am sure my expectations of myself are too high
i have read the siblings without rivalry book and try to let them sort out their arguments with my help as they are young and i am sure don't always know how to .... but my son doesn't seem to want to try!!!
but to be honest i am in a phase where i am totally and utterly fed up with it and have recently told them so and all my patient, loving, positive mothering wasy seem to have slumped into tired, low, fedupand grumpy mum who doesn't like my way at the moment. I just wonder how to go back without making things worse ...... i fought with my sister .... my mum with her brother ..... i just wish i could have a big enough set of arms tobe able to help them to respect and understand each other even if they don't end up being friends ...... it's funny ...... that was my naive reason for having a second child!!!
sorry it is long and thanks ..... actually if anyone knows of a counsellor who supports my way of parenting who really understands i would love to speak with them