I do. I'm a young SAHM to an 11 month old daughter. My partner (together but not married... that's another issue!) is 28 years older than me and obviously much more established than I am. In short, he owns a very successful business and makes a lot of money. He owns the house we live in and the car I drive. The majority of the time we coexist peacefully but there are the times when he is just downright emotionally abusive towards me. At these times I feel like I have to stay with him because there is no alternative. I have no friends or family that I can really turn to that could help me out substantially. I have limited education (an associate degree in liberal arts) and the last person I worked for was him, my partner. I have just less than $10,000 in my savings account and that is my only lifeline. I have no idea what we would do. I just feel so hopeless and that makes his words sting even more, the fact that I HAVE to take them. If I did leave him, I don't feel like it would be a wake up call to him. I don't even think he would care very much. I do not believe that he loves me and I do not believe he would miss me. It's a horrible, horrible feeling to know that you live with someone who doesn't love you. It's not something I ever wanted for my life. He's a good father and he plays with our daughter well but he is not a loving person towards me. We're like very good friends with benefits. If we didn't have my daughter, I know I would have left long ago. I've never been one to put up with this type of thing. I've never had awesome self-esteem but I've never been this little submissive mouse in a relationship, so afraid of making waves or upsetting a man. He doesn't say these horrible things to me every day or very often but the fact that he says them at all makes me believe that I can't live like this forever. I can't live with someone who harbors these feelings towards me or who could say these things to me. I can't sleep next to this person for the rest of my life knowing that he could think so poorly of me.
Basically, what I'm asking, is does anyone else feel trapped like this? Did you ever get out of a situation like this? Just knowing that there's an escape hatch out there somewhere would make me feel 1,000x times better. I could deal with out situation much better just to know that I COULD leave if I wanted to, even if I never did.
I'm sorry if this is really confusing or my thoughts are disjointed. I just need to get it off my chest, you know? I've never said these words before.