Hello everyone - my name is Becky, I'm 27, and I live in Maryland. I'm due July 25th, and this is my first pregnancy. I didn't want to have children, but I didn't want to continue using hormonal birth control or an IUD for the rest of my reproductive life, so my husband and I have practiced Natural Family Planning (using condoms as well) since we got married about four years ago. However, I wasn't as diligent as I could have been, and so here were are.
I do feel grateful that I've never felt afraid of pregnancy, labor, breastfeed, or infant care, but I'm still coming to terms with the responsibility of raising a child. Currently, I'm a media analyst, and I work from home, which is wonderful. Previously, I worked as an interpreter (Spanish-English) for uninsured pregnant women, and my supervisor - now close friend - made an effort to educate me on prenatal care, labor and delivery, and postpartum health. If not for that experience, in which I attended dozens of prenatal visits, fielded hundreds of patient phone calls, researched questions about all kinds of things, and even witnessed several births, I would feel lost today. My nurse-friend turned me on to the world of midwifery, and she's going to be my doula (and sounding board, I'm sure). My mother had two unmedicated births (me and my younger brother, who she delivered at age 39), and she breastfed us each until we were four or five. Even though I didn't want this to happen, I feel like I have a lot of people who can help me through the experience, and I absolutely appreciate that.
I have my first prenatal appointment with a nurse-midwife on January 10th (I'm about 10 weeks along now), and I'm wondering whether the visit will make the fact of pregnancy sink in a little more. Other than the absence of a period, I haven't felt different at all, and sometimes it's hard to believe (though I did two HPTs to prove it to myself). Anyway, I've browsed these forums before, and I really appreciate the atmosphere here, so hopefully being around enthusiastic mothers with a similar crunchy bent will help me feel better about the whole thing.