I just dont want to unless have to i guess. I am having trouble understanding if there's a problem they are looking out for or not.I think everything is fine now and they were just checking for risks of miscarriage b/c of my thyroid. I also feel uncomfortable with the Dr there that i saw, and have been suffering from what happened at the visit. First of all, its a man. Then, i am not really sure if i will have a choice to change providers. But almost everything he said about my thyroid,my PCP disagreed with and said not to go back to him. He almost was giving me a choice of whether or not i will take a thyroid med, as if it may not be necessary and not to worry about risks, that maybe i am fine, just a little different than normal. He made it sound likeother providers may say that i am in a worse positioj but he thinks maybe they are wrong. He says they were wrong already about me being able to get pregnant wiyh my thyroid the way it is, so maybe they are wrong about other things.He also said i dont need to take the med in the morning b/c i might be too hungry 2 wait to eat because you're supposed to give it time to absorb on an empty stomach and he says it could make morning sickness worse or why should I have to wait to eat when I have been starving all night. he said it will absorb whenever I take it and if it doesn't we can increase it. he also said it wasn't that big of a deal 2 take it to close to my prenatal vitamins because the interaction between iron and calcium that's supposed to have a negative effect but he doesn't believe it. he said my prenatal vitamins was okay to take and all the ingredients for fine but maybe not necessary and that I could get my nutrition some food better and that I only need folic acid in the first trimester or that it's the most important. He saw my New Chapter vitamin and said it was too expensive, and he had no problem with it. She said the cruciferous vegetable mix in it is all the greens i am allowed to eat b/c it may affect thyroid med, until i ask the endocrinologist, b/c it's like being a diabetic and eating chocolate. I have to get approved by the endo Dr for how much i can eat and of what. And i cant have any miso or seaweed b/c it caused part of the problem. He didnt have problem with that. Now i am having trouble eating b/c i am so ipset about all tjis, whos right, whos wrong, everything. They dont agree. I haveto wait to see the endo dr for a whole month and what if i find two that disagree again?? PCP said hes full of crap and she emphasized the risks that would happen if idont take the med and all the things that will go wrong as the thyroid hormone binds to my hcg. She will be very unhappy if i dont take the med and i feel like,blame me for putting my baby at risk. She says there is no way i can not take this med b/c my levels will get worse and worse, so start it now to avoid problems . I have started it but with great unsureness and hesitantly. She also said if she were pregnant she would want a Dr not midwife b/c they know more. The place i went to is known for their CNMs who work with the Drs. She said why do i want the midwives instead, i just said depends who it is. I liked how she was protective of me but she thinks the other Dr is all wrong. I was so upset, i called him and his nurse said he does want me on the med. He kept saying dont let anyone telk me what to do and asking me to decide if i want the med. How am i supposed to figure it out? Now i am worried he will think strangley of me for running his ideas by the PCP, but i had to find out all the info i can. Theres too many different opinions. I feel like all of this has triggered stomach queasiness making my whole rythym with food disrupted. I cant even write it w/o getting stressed.Hope i dont stress anyone out. Theres so much involved, it feels and is making me unsure of everything. Thats enough for now.
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