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[altmama]

I am very late and very new, but was hoping to find some support here because I'm really starting to slow down and need women to whine to that will understand ;)  Here is my intro so you don't have to fish for it:

This is my first DDC.  I realize I am REALLLLY late, but I'd like to join anyway as I'm really starting to have a rough time and could use the support.  Some quick stats:

DD- 4 yrs, 10/08, Lana, medicated hospital birth at 37 weeks (water broke on its own), 26 hrs, 7 lbs 13 oz, no health issues, breastfed for 6 mos, no blw

DS- almost 2 years, 2/11, Silas, hospital birth with epi @ 9 cm at 37 weeks (was 5cm at my appt), 26 hrs, 8 lbs 1 oz, no health issues, weaned @ 18 mos, exclusive blw

DS- due 12/28, Abel, planning an unassisted home birth (2 doulas), UP'ing since 22 weeks (anatomy scan looked fabulous), experiencing some pre term labor but no baby yet.  will UC @ 36 wks+

I am baby wearing, cloth diapering (I make them as well), organic, crunchy... the whole 9.  I start midwifery school with AAMI in the spring and am an advocate for marriage equality, intactivism, and natural birth.  I voted for Obama, twice lol.  I like to drink, sew, crochet, and have a bit of a potty mouth.  I am not religious but I do consider myself a humanist.  I have been a sahm since I was 10 weeks pregnant with my first although I have pretty much constantly worked from home in one way or another.  We plan at least one more kid, about 2 years apart from this one in utero, like the other kids are from each other.  I have Borderline Personality Disorder, although I've remained largely umedicated outside of Zoloft and Buspar which I weaned from after getting pregnant this year.  

My only issues this pregnancy have been major anxiety and depression.  I have chosen not to treat with any medication and am hanging on.  Oh, I have a husband lol.  We just celebrated our 2 year anniversary (hes the father of all of my kiddos) and will celebrate 5 yrs together this Christmas.  We live on the southern coast of NC.  I think thats it? :D

I am so freakin tired it hurts.  Prodromal labor is kicking my A**.  I'm starting to feel off kilter mentally.  One day I'm so zen about having a UC and the next I'm like sign me up for the hossy.  Which, is not happening, but its just mood swing after mood swing.  I'm not sleeping or eating well which is only making things worse.  My kids are driving me bat crap and my husband is never home (works 10a-2a every day but Sunday).  I have roids and hot flashes all day long.  My house is falling apart.  I want to go to bed and wake up in labor about 3 weeks from now.  I need my adult life back.  I want a glass of wine like a mfr.  I am STILL having a hard time connecting to this baby in some pretty big ways and I don't know why.  He was TTC'd for sure.  I have this fear that he has some major health problem or will after birth.  Basically, *WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH*.  

[travelmumma]

Welcome mumma!
Am glad you found us!! We are a fun group (even if I do say so myself!)!

I must say that there is a big change between your first two births and your plans for this one!! what was it that led you down the UC path? (I'm home birthing )
Come over and say hi on the weekly thread! We all like to have a good whine about our roids!! He he

[mamadiamond]

welcome, mama!

it sounds like you have a lot going on, so i'm glad you found us. there is some awesome support to be found here...definitely what gets me through the rough days. i'm bipolar and stopped zoloft at the start of this pregnancy, and my husband also works crazy hours (including being gone from three weeks ago until my due date), so i can relate to some of what you're going through. feel free to PM me if you ever want to chat. there are a few other mamas on here who are planning to UC, and a ton who are having home births (birth center for me, but hoping for home birth next time 'round), and they all post a ton of great resources. and a lot of us have potty mouths and 'roid rage.

i hope you feel at home here :).

[darkblue0729]

Welcome mama!! So glad you've joined us! 

[lulubikes]

Welcome altmama! As others have said, there are some great mamas here and great support to be had! Check out the weekly thread -that is where most of the action is. It took me awhile to figure that out

[segolilymama]

Welcome, altmama. It's never too late to join the party :) Stop by the weekly thread, as others have said. There are plenty of us around having home/UC births.