I am back after being absent for awhile. I need someone to talk to. Been TTC for #2 for 2+ years and I just needed to take a few months off to get a clear head. After two years of intensively trying with charting, temping, OPK's, Acupuncture, etc. I have taken a "vacation" from all of that. I haven't been charting, taking my temperatures, quit the Acupuncture, nothing. And it's been great! I even enrolled in Midwifery school, thinking it was time to put my energies elsewhere and then just let baby-creating happen if/when it did. It all felt very "right" and helped me get my head back in order. (Through all of that I found out my Thyroid was not functioning well and my doctor started me on a natural approach to see if we could stimulate it naturally before going with hormones, so that has helped also to get my sanity back!!!).
And so now... here I am.... on CD32 which is 5 days late (and I am never late. If anything, I often have cycles which are too short) and I was really feeling strongly that I needed to just trust the process, so I wasn't going to test at all (which is not like me, but I am feeling very trusting and Zen about this whole thing right now). Been walking around with a big grin on my face, though! However... I haven't yet shared with my husband how late I am and that I think (know?!!!) I am pregnant and I was trying to come up with a fun way to announce it to him when he comes home from an out-of-town business trip on Sunday. I decided I'd go ahead and get a test (opting for a more expensive digital one rather than the cheapie ones I always used to do because it would look nicer) and then I could wrap it up in a box with a nice ribbon and a Congratulations card. But, to my utter surprise, the test this morning was negative! I totally did NOT expect THAT.
Talked to my best friend on the phone and she said this happened with her first son. In fact, even the blood test at the doctors on 8 days late was negative, but two weeks later she was in the full throes of morning sickness, so definitely pregnant. And I googled it, and it seems this happens to a lot of women. How frustrating! I tested at 6 days late with my son and the line showed up almost before the pee hit the stick.
I am fine with just trusting my body and waiting. But my husband is a very analytical type and he will want "proof." I have been married to him long enough to know that a "feeling" I have won't be enough for him to believe it is definitely true. So I am trying to determine how exactly to proceed. "Honey, I am pregnant. The test is negative, but it is wrong. You'll see."... or just refuse the glasses of wine he offers me in the evening until he asks why??? lol... any ideas?
I really, really thought I was out this month until Friday night. I looked at my body in the mirror and then I *knew*. I tested in the morning and sure enough. I guess that's why I was feeling so un-zen, my lizard brain already knew what my thinking brain couldn't let itself believe.
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