A Saner TTC: Frosty Moon - Page 5

[GISDiva]

I'm not picky, a baby can show up in our house any old time he/she pleases.  

[SparkleMaman]

GISDiva I'm with you!! A baby is welcome to show up here any time too, a whole new meaning to baby shower just occurred to me based on your 'duck' emoticon. Glad for the loud TV for your benefit over the holidays

Xerxella and GISDiva Fx!! I am about to join you in the TWW - I am pretty sure I O'd last night (CD 12). 

And just because I DO love quotes, another thought to share:

Edited by SparkleMaman - 11/27/12 at 12:59pm

[Lidamama84]

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[John16n33]

I like it!

[JustJenny]

lidamama- That's Cute!!! Do you feel free-er? I always imagine that's what it would feel like. I've always had shoulder length or longer hair. Mine's super fine and thin so I don't think it would look all that great on me unfortunately. It just looks so fuss free!

[Lidamama84]

Thanks, guys!
JustJenny, I have fine hair too, but it's not thin, if that makes sense...I spent a long time finding a picture online that I could bring to the hairdresser and just say "this is what I want". I wanted to make sure I had the same type of hair/face... I do and I don't feel free-er...I've lived in a ponytail the last five years at least...but overall I'm happy. I just keep feeling like I'm missing the back of my head, lol!! It's taken a while to get up the nerve to do it...my mom used to cut my hair short like a boy's when I was little, and just generally had no idea what to do with girls hair, so I think I had some issues I needed to work through

[GISDiva]

Super cute!!!

[Xerxella]

Originally Posted by Lidamama84 

Thanks, guys!
JustJenny, I have fine hair too, but it's not thin, if that makes sense...I spent a long time finding a picture online that I could bring to the hairdresser and just say "this is what I want". I wanted to make sure I had the same type of hair/face... I do and I don't feel free-er...I've lived in a ponytail the last five years at least...but overall I'm happy. I just keep feeling like I'm missing the back of my head, lol!! It's taken a while to get up the nerve to do it...my mom used to cut my hair short like a boy's when I was little, and just generally had no idea what to do with girls hair, so I think I had some issues I needed to work through

OMG, we're twins separated at birth! I'm still living in a ponytail (got one right now!) and my mom used to cut my hair short so much I'd be called a boy. I DEFINITELY have some hair issues to work through! I am completely flumoxed by my daughter's hair. So, she mostly just ends up in ponytails! Your hair is so cute! Maybe if I have a successful pregnancy again I'll do something drastic like that!

[SparkleMaman]

You look beautiful, Lida!! Love it

[GISDiva]

I was sitting in a long boring meeting this morning and this thought popped into my head.  I have no expectations that I will get pregnant.  I don't feel bad about it, just...I don't know, there is just this growing sense of apathy about it.

And it's not like I've been trying for ages, it's only been five months.  We don't have any serious issues (that I know about anyway).  But I realized today that I won't be surprised if it never happens.  And that thought doesn't even upset me.  Which then leads me to...should we even be trying if I'm so ambivalent about it?  I'm sure I'd like another, but why I am I so *meh* about it now?  DH kept me waiting for an entire year before he said that we could try for another.  Is it my psyche's way of being mad at him for losing a precious year at our age?

I don't know.  A weird spot I found myself in.

[nettlesoup]

GISDiva; I'm feeling exactly the same at the moment, although we haven't been trying for long. I think it's a good state to be in and of course a lot less stressful.

[dakipode]

I feel like I missed a lot the past couple of days.

Hello, John16n33, December is not that far away!
As for birthdays, I'm with Sparklemaman and GISDiva: I don't care. My track record so far has been less than stellar so anytime I can get pregnant is OK with me.

Lidamama: Love your haircut! As a kid my mother always wanted to cut my hair short(ish), between chin and shoulderlength. It took me years to get over that. As an adult I let it grow out almost down to my waist line (hence the giant bun) but a while back I decided I could spare 12" and donate it to the Locks of Love program. It ended up a bit shorter than I had imagined but now I can just let it grow again.

Xerxella: Isn't it funny how we try to trick ourselves into not getting too excited? I'm a rational person but I find I have my superstitions about TTC, mainly because it makes it so much easier to deal with disappointment, to be able to blame something even if it is totally irrational...

GISDiva: I don't know what to tell you. With this last cycle I was so absolutely convinced I wasn't pregnant that mentally I was ready to move on to the next one, maybe there is some of that going on?

Hello everyone else: JustJenny, nettlesoup, Sparklemaman, beckeroo, coati, mirpmama, LilyKay, sphinxy Sorry if I forgot anyone.

AFM: I ended up having an unscheduled surgery on Monday night to remove the "thing" and the tube. DH was allowed to stay in the hospital room with me all night so that was very nice. Got home yesterday afternoon and feeling fine physically, no pain, abs feel a little tight. Emotionally I'm a mess. I had to call and cancel all my clients this week and of course they asked what happened (out of concern and curiosity) and I had to tell them I didn't want to talk about it. I'm so ready to move on and leave this whole episode behind me and yet I can't seem to get over it.
I'm wondering if I should go see a counselor but then I'm worried about cost since this whole unsuccessful pregnancy probably set us back a couple of thousand dollars in hospital bills... And I'm not one to sit around and feel sorry for myself so the peer support groups don't appeal to me at all.
Anyway, I'm sorry I keep bringing up sadness here, I want to be able to contribute positively. This thread is one of the few places where I feel extremely supported so thank you for giving me the space to talk about how I feel.

[Xerxella]

Oh, dakipode, big hugs. The whole thing just sucks. I'm so sorry. I like to think of this as a safe place to be whatever you need to be. It's not just a positive place. You have every right to have and express all of the feelings you're having. I'm just so sorry. The removal of the tube is a tough, tough blow.

[John16n33]

dakipode-  I will probably feel like that when we get to June, but I will have about 6 cycles of trying before we get there so hopefully I will get pregnant before then.  If we get to that point I plan to skip TTC in June and then we will reevaluate TTC in November when we get there.  Wow, that's a whole year away I can't believe I am thinking that far ahead lol.

AFM- I am pretty sure I am 2dpo since I had a temp shift yesterday and it stayed up today.  That's the only news I have lol.

[beingmommy]

Dakipode, I am so sorry about the unexpected surgery.  I think it is fine to bring all your feelings here.  I feel this thread isn't about being brightly positive in the face of everything but about finding your inner strength.  And sometimes that means reaching out when things are hard.  Lots of hugs and good thoughts being sent your way.  

[GISDiva]

Originally Posted by beingmommy 

Dakipode, I am so sorry about the unexpected surgery.  I think it is fine to bring all your feelings here.  I feel this thread isn't about being brightly positive in the face of everything but about finding your inner strength.  And sometimes that means reaching out when things are hard.  Lots of hugs and good thoughts being sent your way.  

Yes, all of this.  (((((hugs)))))

[nettlesoup]

I'm sorry you're having such a hard time of everything, Dakipode. I hope you start to feel better about it soon.

All my symptoms have disappeared, once again. Or maybe I'm suddenly getting ovulation symptoms that I never used to have. But the symptoms went away yesterday, and I'm due to test on thursday or Friday. Oh well, maybe next time.

[SparkleMaman]

Dakipode I am so very sorry, what an even more rotten turn of events! Lots of hugs to you And please do not apologize for not always being bright and sunny, you are a real human being and our feelings are messy. It is okay to share your true, real self here. I think talking with someone, even if only for a short time, might be very helpful. I know seeing a counselor/therapist has been very helpful for me in the past, in moving things forward and letting go, when I have struggled with specific events, and in general managing anxiety. I think it would be well worth whatever out of pocket expense you might incur. And you have every right to feel sad, weepy, worried, angry... what have you!! You have experienced a loss, a major surgery and are recovering, physically and emotionally. I am sure the hormones being thrown out of whack doesn't help make managing your feelings easier. Take time to take care of yourself, be good to yourself, be gentle with yourself. You are in my thoughts!!

[Lidamama84]

(((Hugs))), dakipode, take care of yourself! The same thing happened to a dear friend of mine almost exactly a year ago, she was on BCPs, so it took almost a week to figure out what was going on, but she is now due with #1 any day. Another friend also has only one tube and 3 kids, so while there are certainly no guarantees, losing a tube is certainly not definitive. Take the time you need to feel better and vent away here. We're all ears

[JustJenny]

dakipode- oh man I'm so sorry. That is just rotten. I have been thinking about you all day today. Just wondering how you were doing and if you are ok. Nurture yourself, both your body and soul. Huge Hugs 

AFM- 9 dpo today. Nothing to report. Not stressed out not really anything. I kinda feel like I'm on auto pilot as far as ttc goes. My suspicions are that AF will arrive on time.