I am feeling really confused about our conversation actually. I sent in the volunteer request, without giving my name, as you suggested, which I was comfortable with, and recieved a response saying they could not communicate with me without knowing my name...so, i guess I am looking for clarity about everything you said. I will admit it was really hard paying attention to what you said due to a migraine headache I have for 1/2 of everday and feeling very out it. And, I dont think as fast as you were talking, it makes me just nervous, like the pace of the world around me. But i do remember you saying a few times, that this program i usuallyfor teenagers??. I am not sure if you were suggesting that it is not for me.??? As I explained , I have very little income, and really can not afford to have a baby. IIt is very hard to talk about right now since i am figuring out how to deal with it, which is why i contancted this program. I am figuring out what i need to buy and hoping that i may have money left over, but that is just a hope. I am not looking for pity, but i have given up living in an apt in the past and lived in my car, just to save money for things like a carseat as i told you. Being homeless for years has taken a toll on me and i have survived much trauma. I feel i am deserving of some help from the doula program but dont want much. You asked about my partner, and what support I have. What do you mean by "support"? I really wish there was more you could tell me about how to qualify for this program b/c i feel confused by their reeponse and wanting more info from me, while i would like more info from you all, and dont really feel clear after our talk. The only thing clear to me is that this service is under used and from my perspective, it must be because it is expensive , and very difficult, and demanding to become a parent,. I would also like to become a volunteer doula, i dont have formal training, but have been there for friends in the "full spectrum" as they call it now. Do you have "full spectrum" doulas? Thanks again.
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