Had Some Spotting Today
So true! I've been crampy/spotting since Wednesday and I'm just not able to find that kumbaya place where it's okay. I told my friend last night- I don't even want to act "strong", don't tell me just to have faith, it'll be okay. I know that stuff. It still sucks! And it's still scary every time. And I just want to feel the way I feel without getting told how to do it better.
I "behaved" through 6 weeks of spotting in my last pregnancy. This time I just kinda want to be a baby about it.
I'm there too!!
With at least 2 of my last pregnancies I spotted for a full 6 weeks (sometimes more than spotting!) and I had a subchorionic hematoma causing the bleed. This time my lower back is killing me, and I have "fluid" in the cul de sac (the back of my vagina but not visible in my uterus) and this fluid .... they have no idea where it's coming from to fill the cul de sac?!?! But when it comes out its sometimes red and sometimes brown blood. This just sucks!! She said the lower back ache could be an asymptomatic bladder infection (maybe you too??) because it's very common in early pregnancy to have a bladder infection I guess.
No matter what, waking up thinking today is going to be the day I lose the baby (AGAIN!!!) every few days sucks @ss and without a doubt *IF* we get a living baby this time I will have my tubes tied!!!!!
I was perusing my old DDC and I do remember spotting pink and red with him early on but apparently this happened a few times. I don't remember being anywhere NEAR this paranoid with him though. Gawd, this is some bull$%*!. I keep thinking I've felt the tiniest squirm from the baby, maybe b/c I need to think this, I dunno. It could be anything though so I'm not really focused on that. My first appointment won't be until December so guess I'm waiting to see! Blech...
I'm sorry! I agree- Google is not your friend!
Mine has seemed to taper off but I'm sure it will be back. I truly hate this. It really sucks always thinking "if we have this baby", instead of "when the baby is born". Bah... I've been debating going in for a u/s for peace of mind but with my last pregnancy I would do that and then bleed the very next day and there was just no point. I'm just trying to deal this time. I know I have an SCH, and I knew to expect more bleeding.
I don't know if I mentioned it but maybe this will help? At 5.5 weeks I totally thought I had a MC. I had bad cramping and got stuck in the bathroom gushing blood for 20 minutes before I could even get up to get a towel. I bled like a stuck pic for a couple of hours and I was lightheaded and shaky. I slept and bled like a light period the rest of the day. I thought that was the end. But I went in for a u/s a few days later and lo and behold there was a heartbeat. Crazy! Those kids really can hang in there through quite alot. Blows my mind!
They did tell me I'd have more spotting/bleeding so I wasn't surprised but what kills me is my overwhelming, debilitating nausea took a hike last Wed when the bleeding started. Ugh. Luckily I am now getting little bouts of nausea here and there but it's not exactly enough to be definitive. So lame!
We'll have to have a party on here when we have our 2nd tri ultrasounds and get to see our healthy babies thriving.
It really sucks always thinking "if we have this baby", instead of "when the baby is born". Bah... I've been debating going in for a u/s for peace of mind but with my last pregnancy I would do that and then bleed the very next day and there was just no point. I'm just trying to deal this time.
Your story does help, a lot. Wow! How terrifying and incredible! They really do show incredible strength now don't they?
My mellow symptoms have also eased up a lot. I still have some aversions, a little gagging when I brush my teeth sometimes, a little tired, but none of this is anything huge. I still feel "off" but I'm so freaked out that I can't really hear my intuition clearly. Yes, so very lame! I'm sad b/c I've had to distance myself quite a bit from all this ATM and that's just not how pregnancy should be IMO. I want to be HappyPregnantLady from pregnancies 1 and 2 .
Yes, let's have a giant 2nd tri party, complete with virtual champagne and dancing bananas when we get there .
I woke up this morning around 2AM with some pretty nasty cramps. Got up to go to the bathroom and it really began. Was still in the bathroom trying to breathe and deal with what was happening two hours later when my toddler, who doesn't appreciate it when I'm gone from the bed for too long woke up and started calling for me. So then I was nursing/talking to/playing with my DS2, taking showers/going to the bathroom, dealing with the pain and shock of what was going on, cleaning up, and trying not to FTFO for the next few hours. Not so great I must say.
Around 6:30 this morning everything came to a head. This is all so surreal. I'm feeling a lot of things but I'm numb at the same time?! Uh, ok then...
Guess it was my turn on the MC Wheel-o-Fun. Such a crap ride and I want my money back. Intellectually, and even deep within my spirit, I know that everything in life works together for a reason, no matter how shitty it feels; at least that's my opinion of things. This is some traumatic bull though. I can only blink in awe of the strength of those of you who have had to deal with birth and/or pregnancy loss multiple times over (including my sister).
I'll go in to my provider's office sooner rather than later probably just to make sure everything is complete and all. I'm pretty weak and dizzy so I'm taking it easy today and letting the boys watch a few Netflix shows and whatnot. I went this morning and got prenatals, folate, pregnancy tea, liquid iron with trace minerals, and a liquid cal/mag/D3. My head is and I feel like I'm doing something other than sitting here shellshocked. We want to start trying again in January so I'm just going to concentrate on exercising, eating well, etc. and working through the emotional upheaval of this event.
I really enjoyed the time I got to spend with you ladies here in this DDC. I hope the remainder of your pregnancies are happy, healthy, worry free and that you get to snuggle up to your sweet babies in June .