I just have this worry. Like I haven't had before. Could it be that I'm older now? Big gap between births? more tired? Four losses between my last birth and now? Lost my trust in the process somehow?
Has anyone else here experienced this sort of thing? I just wonder if it goes with the territory being someone with my history or if there is something I will need to give more energy to. I don't want to feed the anxiety needlessly.
On another hand, I can't even believe I'm thinking about where to give birth this early on with my history... Have I mentioned that I'm having trouble sleeping and have tons of all night time to think about it? Sheesh.