My son was born by emergency c-section 10 months ago and, although I understand that it was completely necessary and I'm so happy that he is healthy, I still get sad when i think about missing out on the natural childbirth I wanted. I thought I was over it, but a friend just had a baby a few weeks ago and when I heard her story, I got sad all over again.
Although I'm not planning on getting pregnant again any time soon, I think a lot about whether I would be comfortable with a VBAC. I've heard lots of scary things and lots of good things about it. The dr. said my son had such a big head that even if he hadn't been in distress, I might have had to have a c-section after hours of labor anyways. Since big heads run in the family, maybe attempting a VBAC wouldn't even be worth the risk.
Anyways, I was just wondering if it's normal to still be so sad about it after almost a year. I feel like I cheated my way into motherhood since I didn't even have any labor pains. I missed out on seeing what my body could do. I missed out on holding him in the first 45 minutes of his life. How do I get over this sadness already??