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[SimplyRochelle]

Hey ladies, 

It seems pretty bizarre that I'm here. We've been ttc since we got married in May of 2007. Got pregnant in the summer of 2008 and miscarried at 12 weeks. We've really only been able to afford to use Clomid, and earlier this year in April, I had a laproscopy that removed some stage 2 endometriosis. We've done some more random Clomid cycles since then, including last month. I took 100mg of Clomid on cd2-7 and got a positive test on 12dpo. I started bleeding bright red the very next day and assumed I was dealing with a chemical pregnancy. When the bleeding started to taper off on day 3, I got suspicious and took another test, and was super shocked with it was way darker than any of the previous ones. I continued taking tests and had a beta on Monday and Tuesday. My first one was 79 and my second was 123 which is a doubling time of 40 hrs but they said my progesterone was a little low, which could just be because I am so early, and they want me to come back next Monday for another draw. After Monday they'll schedule a pretty early ultrasound to rule out an ectopic because of the way my endometriosis looked before the surgery they feel I'm at a higher risk. 

I think my progression my tests looks good but I'm still weary of getting too hopeful until we have an ultrasound.

Anyone else dealing with pregnancy after infertility?

[Stormikris]

Congratulations! I have had fertility issues. Both PCOS and endometriosis. July 2007 got pregnant with DS after clomid/HCG trigger shot/IUI. I bled throughout that pregnancy and especially every 4 weeks. So i know how people might not know that they are pregnant. My progesterone always drops after ovulation. So the 4 years we had been stationed overseas after getting pregnant that once we have had no luck. For the last year I have been taking metformin for the PCOS. Saw the RE when they checked my progesterone 7 dpo it was 2.6 and they like it above 10 so started prometrium that day. 5 days later BFP at home and at dr's beta was 6.2. I am at 4w5d progesterone is over 12 hcg is over 1000 ultrasound today shows bub to be in a good spot in the uterus.

[quantumleap]

Congratulations! I totally understand the hesitation in getting too excited too. But, after a few years, I have decided that even if it ends in miscarriage, *I* believe in getting excited, and in sharing that excitement with others. We had a m/c early on (in 2005), and then it took three years to get pregnant with dd. Now that we know what works, we've had decent luck (this is our 3rd pregnancy in 4 attempted cycles - I am so beyond lucky, really !), but I still feel that sort of panic every time I'm pregnant. As in, it takes so much work and insanely careful coordination, money, travel, etc, etc to get pregnant, so the stress is not just the grief of a miscarriage, it's also the knowledge that "just try again" is a a complete unreality! 

But, things sound really positive for you, and we'll think positive thoughts for you (both of you!). Looking forward to having our pregnancies develop together. :D

[akmeg]

I'm glad to see this thread!  Congrats to you all!  :)  I have two kiddos, born in 2002 and 2006.....so it's been quite a few years since I've done this!  We haven't undergone any fertility treatments, but I've been charting and trying to track my cycles for a couple of years now.  Within the last 6 months or so I've really let go of the idea that I would ever have another one, and I sort of feel like I had made my peace with that.....so of course, life likes to keep me on my toes and here I am!  I just tested positive yesterday, and I honestly have no idea when my last period was or conception date!  :)  But with another positive test today, I'm feeling pretty hopeful and excited! 

[SimplyRochelle]

Well, more red bleeding today but no clots or cramps. I think I really overdid it yesterday out hiking on some property we're planning to move to but we didn't want to tell the people that we were with about the pregnancy. I'm hoping that's all it is but of course, a huge part of me feels like this is the beginning of the end, just like I did with the previous bleeding. I had been trying not to take any more pregnancy tests since I have this 3rd beta scheduled on Monday but I feel like if this bleeding tapers off like it did last time, I will have to go buy some just to ease my mind a little. This is just so stressful. I'm having a hard time hiding it since we have company that we don't want to tell and that's just adding to my stress level. I volunteered at a super cute local craftshow this morning to try and take my mind off of things while being surrounded by beautiful things and people. I just wish I didn't have to entertain. I'm seriously thinking of faking a migraine and laying in bed all day (but not til after lunch.) It's going to be a long couple of days....

[incorrigible]

That's really rough. I would totally go the migraine route and take it easy on yourself. I don't know how delicate your system is, but bleeding during pregnancy absolutely FREAKS me out. That happens, and all bets are off. How long is your company visiting for? 

I grudgingly went the other route, and the whole world knows I'm pregnant and basically expecting a miscarriage. We were going to keep it under our hats, but we had this huge day planned yesterday and I was already cramping up and getting worried first thing in the morning. I don't get a lot of warning when I miscarry. If I start bleeding in the first trimester, there's no coming back from it. So we told the kids what was up so they'd know why we were adjusting big Christmasy plans at the last minute...and they had friends coming over so they told their friends...who told their parents...who are truly well meaning, but about the biggest gossips in town. I had a congratulations card within 2 hours of telling the kids. *sigh* I told dh last night that hallmark needs to come out with a "Congratulations on your upcoming miscarriage" card. It would have gone over so much better with me. lol

[JoyfamMama]

Oh incorrigible.... That's so terrible and so, so funny at the same time about the miscarriage card... The few people I tell now when I first know I'm pregnant are always so excited, and "congratulations!" and I'm like, why? I'll probably lose it anyway... But a card... That's a whole new level.

[incorrigible]

Actually, that kind of card would probably be comforting to me.. That someone "gets" what I'm going through...but I have a dark sense of humor like that. I think I only have one friend with as dark a sense of humor, and the balls to give me something like that, though. lol

[mamaki]

Originally Posted by SimplyRochelle 

Well, more red bleeding today but no clots or cramps. I think I really overdid it yesterday out hiking on some property we're planning to move to but we didn't want to tell the people that we were with about the pregnancy. I'm hoping that's all it is but of course, a huge part of me feels like this is the beginning of the end, just like I did with the previous bleeding. I had been trying not to take any more pregnancy tests since I have this 3rd beta scheduled on Monday but I feel like if this bleeding tapers off like it did last time, I will have to go buy some just to ease my mind a little. This is just so stressful. I'm having a hard time hiding it since we have company that we don't want to tell and that's just adding to my stress level. I volunteered at a super cute local craftshow this morning to try and take my mind off of things while being surrounded by beautiful things and people. I just wish I didn't have to entertain. I'm seriously thinking of faking a migraine and laying in bed all day (but not til after lunch.) It's going to be a long couple of days....

I'm not dealing with pregnancy after infertility but I have had a LOT of bleeding this pregnancy so I am with you on that one... It really sucks and is so worrying. Hugs

[SimplyRochelle]

I ended up having a miscarriage but I guess I saw it coming. My beta was finally 0 on Monday so now we just try again!

[incorrigible]

=(  but best of luck, and lots of sticky vibes for the next one!

[somegirl99]

I'm so sorry Rochelle!

[Stormikris]

I am so sorry to read this. Good luck and please consider getting the doc to order prometrium next time to prevent the miscarriage.