We were only in the NICU for one week but dang, that was the worst week of my life. How do you help you LO recover emotionally from such a rough start? Does anyone else worry about any lasting effects? We're home now with a healthy baby but sometimes I wonder if this will show in his behavior someday. Maybe I'm overthinking it....
DS2 apparently has blood that clots very easily and drawing blood from him was so traumatic! His little heels and arms have so many pricks and pokes healing all over them now. Watching the transport team struggle to draw blood the first night was so hard I actually had to leave the room. I stood outside his room and cried since I could do nothing, was only in the way, and was probably stressing DS even more while trying to comfort him when they poked him. Then the rest of the week, blowing and replacing 5 IV lines was awful. Coming from me, the mom who never let my first son get a vaccination without nursing and holding him through it, every time I coud not hold or comfort DS2 through his pain was heart wrenching. When we were able to finally nurse, he couldn't nurse when upset so not even that was a comfort to him in pain.
Obviously I need to work through and accept our rough start to DS2's life but what about him? How do I help him recover from all those tears and all that pain? Of course I'm holding him non-stop now I'm so grateful he's healthy and home. I just wish there was something more I could do.
Do I just need to get over it? Am I projecting my emotional pain on him? Sigh.