Currently and for the last few years I've been a SAHM. I went back to work 6 years ago after my 7 year old turned one... I worked 6 days a week and family watched her for the most part, my husband was home with her the other. Then I had my second 4 years ago and I've stayed at home since. I've always made a *little* bit of money here and there since being off... Direct sales a couple times, and various short term daycare situations for the past couple years.
I'm doing morning daycare for a family 4 days a week right now so the mom can have one on one time with each of her kids and I'm also doing afterschool care 3-4 days a week for my husband's old landlord (he had to make a long distance move without us for the first part of this year).
We are now in a position where the money I bring in is nice for little splurges and fun here and there but really NOT needed at all.
My youngest will be going to full day kindergarten come Sept and I'm starting to feel the pressure to "decide" what I want to do when both of the girls are in school full time. The pressure is all ME however as my husband really doesn't care what I choose to do.
He's told me I am more than welcome to continue staying at home and not working at all (EEK, that's a lot of me time each day!) or I can
Find a full or part time job although I think he'd prefer if I only worked a 9-2 shift or I could
go back to school and look at getting a diploma or degree (we have a collage here and another branch with more courses 45 mins away) or even
just take some personal interest courses...
I have a lot of "skills" that could translate into home based business' but I really don't think I'm cut out for running my own business... My skills are just hobbies that I don't mind sharing with friends and family here and there.
I really only have work experience in one line of work (aquatics) and while I have done a TON of different jobs and had quite a bit of responsibility at times, I'm worried how it would translate on paper to office jobs...
But I don't know if I *want* to work. I don't know if I want to continue staying home even in the short run. I just don't know what I want to do.
I *do* know that sooner than later my husband and I would like to look at having more kids either biologically or through adoption or both. But that could be 6 months away like originally planned or it could be 2-3 years away.
I *do* NEED to get healthier. I've had a lot of health issues that were triggered or made worse after both of my pregnancies. My husband would like to hold off 'trying' for a baby until we both feel and are healthier, however if a baby happened under it's own devices (and could ;) ) then we'd be thrilled and my doctor has no issues with me carrying another pregnancy right now, it's just our own want and need.
So how do you decide. I'm a planner and a sometimes perfectionist that needs to have all of her duckies in a row and right now my duckies are EVERYWHERE... (Christmas stress, having taken on too much and both of our families coming to visit one after another have me in a tailspin... I shouldn't even be thinking about this, but that's what my mind does! It always tries to add more stress when I'm stressed...)
So Ideas? Thoughts?