Not sure if this belongs on this board, but I would appreciate some input.
Has anyone experienced an actual taste in your mouth that you might describe as fear or pain?
I had a pretty normal labor with my 3rd baby but the pain was indescribable and during the worst contractions I tasted a strange, metallic, sterile flavor in my mouth. It somewhat makes me think of blood, but not quite like that either. I'm experiencing the same flavor during latch-on while breastfeeding (apparently due to my sensitive skin, I have to do the whole cracked nipples/bleeding/blisters first week or two of breastfeeding postpartum.)
This wouldn't be a big deal except that thinking about the flavor (ie: while I type this) gives me flash backs to labor and I start crying uncontrollably. This is a bit confusing to me, since I know that while the labor was painful, it was a quick five hours from start to finish, there was no hemorrhage like my previous birth, and I had no stitches and am feeling really great physically.
Has anyone experienced something like this? "Tasting fear"? and is there any way to deal with flashbacks? I am so in love with my new little one, it is painful to think that her labor is somehow haunting me even though technically it went so well.