I was amazed!! I really honestly thought it was going to take months. When DH was trying to get preggo with his first wife they tried for over a year, so when we got pregnant with Delilah even though we were using protection we kinda thought she was just our miracle baby. When we decided to start trying we got pregnant on our first ovulation, I took a test 9dpo and we got a faint positive which just continued to get darker and darker. I felt very blessed. But honestly shocked!
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My husband was very involved, he would come up with names, help me refine ones that he liked, etc.
For Delilah Beau, we had two names picked out for her. She is named after my father who passed away, his name was William but he is from the South (Texas) so his nickname was always Bo. I have always loved the name Delilah so we decided to change the spelling of Bo to the french spelling same pronuciation Beau for beautiful. We also had Violet Maddax picked out for her as well. Maddax was the name that we had originally picked out if she would have been a boy but decided it could work for both genders then added it to my first name. The moment she was born, I looked up at my husband and asked if she had a name, and he promtly said Delilah Beau, and it truly does suit her to a tee!
With this little one, since we didn't use Maddax the first time around we decided to use it. She will either be Maddax Annetta, Annetta being my middle name or Maddax Mae.
The reason we keep trying to incorporate my names is because my names were given to me from both of my grandmother's. Violet was my paternal grandmother's middle name and Annetta was my maternal grandmother's middle name. I have always loved the story of where I got my names. My mom would tell me it was because I was the second child so she chose the middle names from the two most important women in her life, and she knew that just by having their names I would be strong, passionate and caring. She also knew that everytime she said my name she would think of them, which she said would always make her smile. To this day she still tells me this story and when she comes to visit and she is putting Delilah to bed I have heard her tell it to her.
I know that I have already answered this question, however it was sticking in my mind because it seemed so much bigger at the time then just shocked. So I looked back at my journal to remind myself....and how I felt was yes, shocked but overwhelmed with a little bit a guilt and a lot of gratitude. I have had friends that have struggled for years to get pregnant to no avail and here I was already pregnant.....sometimes I feel like I don't deserve the things I am given based off my past. I say it all the time, I threw my life away so many times, I don't deserve to even be sitting here let alone the abudance of happiness God has blessed me with, but then I remind myself that God's grace is simply that, grace and I have done the work to get better. Even after 7 years it is still hard for me to feel like I deserve good things but I am learning and changing and hopefully some day this tape in my head will play a different song.