I've been stalking this forum for a couple of weeks, wondering if I should write or not. Things aren't going better so I'd really like some help.
I'm 28, engaged to a wonderful man and we've been talking about having a baby for a while. But not just now. Maybe after the wedding in October or something like that.
Right now I don't have a job, I'm working on many projects, a book deal and some big travel plans.
I found out 3 weeks ago that I was pregnant, and things have been going downhill from there.
I'm freaked out. I don't know if I'm ready for that. I wanted to be much better off with a career and some money before getting PG.
On top of that I'm having some very bad days with awful nausea (thank God not very often). Most of the time I can't even fathom eating anything. I'm living on salad, smoothies and tangerines.
But the worst part is that I'm like a big slug with no energy or motivation. I feel useless 90% of the time. I cry for no reason. I try to kick myself into doing something but I fall short and I hate myself for being so useless. I feel like a burden for my fiance and I really don't know what to do.
It's just so not me to be depressed for days.
I'm going crazy here.