My mom died suddenly three weeks ago...

[carolynb37]

I feel so lost. Three weeks ago I got a phone call that I will never forget. My mom had died. No one knew what happened. At the time, they thought she fell and hit her head. But in the end, it was a heart attack followed by a fall. I live very far away from her, but we spoke almost daily. She'd been feeling crappy/nauseas since at least Thanksgiving. I asked her to go to the doctor every time we spoke, but she "was fine". As I spoke with many of her friends, the week leading up to her heart attack, she wasn't fine. I am so sad, so confused, so angry. Why didn't she go to the doctor if she was not feeling well? Why didn't I know how sick she was? She and I had a very open and honest relationship...we had our struggles, we fought, we laughed, we cared deeply for eachother. I am so heartbroken. I cry every day. I miss her so much. I have so much guilt and sadness.

[goldenwillow]

Peace to you.  I am so sorry for your loss. 
 

[treegardner]

I am so sorry for your loss.

 

[lanamommyphd07]

So sorry momma. 

[Robin Alexis]

I am so sorry for your loss.

Robin Alexis

[P.J.]

I'm so sorry
 

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[P.J.]

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[P.J.]

triple post....
 

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[mamacatsbaby]

I'm so very sorry for your loss carolynb . My mom left this earth almost a decade ago and it still hurts. I loved my mom dearly and miss her every single day. I still need her! Be gentle with yourself .

[devinsmommy26]

Your mother seemed like a very strong women. Do not feel guilt....she probably knew it was time to go. I wish I had that type of relationship with my mother....to have a pleasant conversation with her every day. Think of what you had. Maybe she wanted to keep it up beat and positive with you when you talked.......to make that a lasting memory. Hold on to that.....

My heart and soul are with you,

Nikki

[1stTimeMama4-4-10]

I think I had the exact same title about a year and a half ago. My mother too, passed suddenly from heart related condition that I had no knowledge of. It has now been 17 months. The pain has faded, but not a day passes that I don't think of her at least a dozen times or more. the hardest part for me is that my girls will never know her and she will never know my girls. They are now 6 months and almost 3. I was VERY angry for a while. and for a long time, every time I thought of my mother I could only think of all of the mistakes she had made in her life and all the things that I would do differently. At around 6 months I started to feel peace with all of it. It's been a gradual process, but now when I think of her I just think of all of her best qualities and how grateful I am that I did much time with her as I did. it still stings when my friends talk of their mothers. Maybe it always will. Be gentle with yourself it's a hard road for sure, but you are not alone. Feel free to p.m. me if you like.

[forestmushroom]

my daddy died suddenly of a heart attack 6 months ago. I didn't get to say goodbye, but he was at least here in town visiting so I did see him the night before. I miss him terribly. I am just beginning to deal with this... even though it has been 6 months and we had a memorial service, etc. It just didn't seem real until now.

I cry daily, too.  ((HUGS))
 

[chrissy collins]

I am so sorry for your loss....It leaves such a hole to lose a parent.  I hope you have family and friends that you can look to for support. It makes it even harder that it was such a shock and possibly preventable if she had went to the drs You can't change what happened but you can remember all the fun you had with your mother.  She would want you to do that Hang in there and be good to yourself you deserve it!!

[unuselyriver]

i am so so sorry for your loss