January 2013 TWW Thread - Page 38

[BeautifulCanvas]

I'm out.  Wishing everyone a speedy tww and loads of beautiful BFPs.

[katiecornflakes]

Hugs BC

[mamacatsbaby]

I'm so sorry for your loss AngelKissed. I'm glad you've found comfort and reassurance in your studies. Certainly makes me feel better!

Hope February's for you BeautifulCanvas.

Ugh, ok, I reeeeeally need to go to bed...

I'm really working on trying to manage the obsession this go around so I'm laying low .

Ok, seriously .

[NovaM]

I can't sleep, im so anxious 3 more days until test! uggghhhh 2ww.

[Lidamama84]

Holy smokes, this thread exploded yesterday! CONGRATS, Dahlia!!!

Let's see if I can remember everything...

I am a LLL leader, so I guess you could say I have an obsession with breasts too, hahaha!!

My kids have the sickies. DD1 has a low fever so she's sitting on the couch reading stories to DD2, where normally she'd be buggin me about something, so there's a silver lining to that, I guess!

SO....AF was due yesterday morning, before 9am, and she's still not here. I actually didn't poas yesterday, but did this morning with fmu, and it was a BFN. It totally sucks that the TWW in my case seems to be a 3WW! but, like I mentioned up-thread, with DD2 I didn't get a squinter until about4days after af was due, so that's probably just how my body works! I also O around cd18 of a 28 day cycle, rather than the "standard" 11 or 12, so that might explain why it takes so long for me to get a bfp. I'm just staying calm and taking my pre-natals, lol!

I don't have any pre-AF signs, had a spur of nesting energy yesterday, cleaned my whole house and did all my laundry, dishes, cooked, played with the kids, hung out with my mom....sounds like a lot, but I was up since 4:30....thanks to my kiddos! Nausea is continuing, as is frequent peeing and extreme hunger. I'm going to call my midwives office for an appointment tomorrow, and hopefully I'll get a bfp in a few days. Although, I may have to use my 8$ pregnancy test if I don't get a bfp with the cheapies by the middle of the week. It's so funny, DH thinks the second you get pregnant, BAM! Positive pregnancy test. I had to explain a lot to him yesterday, but he still doesn't believe I'm pregnant. He actually told me "I'LL tell you when you're pregnant" and proceeded to girate his hips. He almost got smacked
Edited by Lidamama84 - 1/27/13 at 2:59am

[SparkleMaman]

Dahlia You and your little noodle are in my thoughts and prayers. Lots of sticky vibes to you! Yeah October babies!! I am excited to see your morning test and hear what your DH has to say

Katie Thinking of you and keeping my fingers and toes crossed!!

Beautifulcanvas. Fx for next month.

Fx Lidamama!! Sounds promising

Blonhrt Looking forward to seeing your flowing tresses!

Mamacatsbaby I hear you. The obsession is a sickness. It's consuming. I'm with you! Hope you got a good night's sleep.

Cindy-lu and Becky. Haven't heard from you in a few days. How are you doing?

NovaM!! The TWW is excrutiating. And I'm sorry to say it doesn't really get easier. Hang in there, mama!! With my DD I had no discernible symptoms unit well after my BFP (the day after AF was due).

AFM 9 DPO Feeling really nauseous again this morning, much more intense. And still no pre-AF breast changes!! I had another big temp rise this morning. I am really thinking of testing in the morning tomorrow (I'll be 10 DPO). I've got Wondfos and FRERs. Katie could you check out my chart again and see if you think I have reason to be excited or not yet? http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/41c7dc I am a little confused about the 2 dips, at 5 and 7 DPO. But the rise seems promising, right? I am feeling really good but impatient, as I know you all are as well!!

Enjoy the rest of the weekend, mamas!!

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[dahlia810]

well, as usual my body likes to mess with me, and when I tested this morning, got a bfn. who knows.  I'm frustrated. I'll probably test again later. Maybe yesterday's test was just a fluke.

Lots of love and hugs to everyone! I'll respond to everyone individually later today!

[SparkleMaman]

Oh Dahlia!! I suspect your urine was just not concentrated enough.Mamamash said last month she got her BFPs with SMU at 10 and 11 DPO. Ugh, this is such a rollercoaster and I'm sorry you didn't just get a decidedly dark BFP.  Hang in there!!   and lots of You'll see those beautiful two lines soon, Dahlia!! I just know it. Fingers, toes, legs, arms and everything else crossed while we wait!

[dahlia810]

Thanks Sparkle. I'm disappointed, but not shocked I guess. I hope it turns out in a bfp.

*sigh*

[SparkleMaman]

Dahlia This entire process of TTC is so stressful and tangled with all kinds of emotions. We are taught from such a young age that if we have unprotected sex just once, we risk unplanned pregnancy. We spend so much time and thought choosing and using contraceptive methods. SO when we decide we are ready to have a baby, it seems only reasonable that all our DH or DP needs to do is look at us and poof, we should be magically pregnant (obviously not literally, but you know what I mean). When it doesn't work as quickly or neatly as that, it is devastating. Coupled with your loss last month, I know how much of a struggle this is. You know this is my 9th cycle TTC #2. And quite honestly, the anticipation, the wait, the sadness - it totally sucks!! I totally get that but don't lose hope!! I know you need to protect yourself but don't count yourself out. I'm rooting for you, big time, Dahlia. This WILL happen. Let yourself feel angry, sad, disappointed. Whatever you need to. But hang in there.

[SparkleMaman]

And my DH doesn't get any of this, btw. He is totally content with our one DD and is perplexed as to why this is even an issue for me. It might happen. It might not. This is the one place I feel really understood. Dahlia lots and lots of hugs!!

[dahlia810]

I feel like i'm meant to be a mom, and it's so frustrating that it's not just happening. Thanks for being so understanding. This really is the only place that I can go where my emotions are taken as valid. I just don't know why it has to be such a f**king rollercoaster for me. I got like 4 false positives in November, miscarried last month, and who knows what's going to happen this time around. I hate it.

[SparkleMaman]

Dahlia I know. I remember that from November too. All I can say is I do get it, I understand. While my struggles do not exactly mirror your's, it is all a f**king rollercoaster. I don't know why this is happening for you but I am SO hopeful for you. I believe you are meant to be a mom too! I have only one friend IRL I talk to at all about this and she is just like, "Well have sex a lot, don't stress about it. I don't know why you spend so much time and money on all those tests! It will just happen if you have sex a lot." Uh, frustrating. You have every right to feel frustrated, angry, disappointed, scared, etc. Please know I get it and I am so sorry. I still have a really great feeling for this month for you!!

[dahlia810]

Thank you Sparkle, it's nice to have people who understand. I have a friend like that too, she has one son, totally unplanned (but very much loved of course) and then like 8 months later she got pregnant again, which she and her husband wanted, but weren't trying for. I hate to say it, but, it's so unfair. I asked if she used OPKs and she said nope just got lucky, and then proceeded to tell me that I need to relax and stop trying and thenit will happen. Oh, thank you so much for your sage advice!!!  Ummmm no. Not all of us are lucky enough to trip and get pregnant. ugh. Sorry for all the ranting this morning. It's been a rough few months. I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels this way, and I feel like I'm being selfish for complaining when so many others have it so  much worse. It's amazing how in love you become immediately with the faintest of faint pink lines on those tests! They represent soo much, and it's hard not knowing for certain what is going to happen.

Thanks for letting me vomit my emotions everywhere this morning  I'll test later.. I got a bfn yesterday with my fmu, then my bfp with afternoon pee. Maybe I'm one of those people whose fmu doesn't show as much hcg.

[Blonhrt88]

Lidamama, LLL helped me an Owen in the beginning, you ladies are amazing and full of compassion

Last month, my period came two weeks late. I was in a four week wait! I I hope that's not the case for you but it sucks when you just don't know, either way, I totally feel for you!

Oh sparkle, I can't wait for you to test! im no good at charts but your notes sound promising!

Dahlia, how many dpo are you? I hope today's was the fluke, not yesterday's

[NovaM]

Dahlia, im so sorry to hear about your bfn this morning, im a lurker and i was so excited for you, actually im still keeping fx, i honestly think u jus tested to early. if it kills me im going to wait until wednesday to test. i wish u the best and all the baby dust in the world.

[katiecornflakes]

Dahlia - Huge hugs! What a bummer. What kind of test was that yesterday? I'm so hoping your body just does better with afternoon pee for a BFP! Fingers and toes crossed for you. Totally hear you on how freaking stressful this is. So many people don't understand. Once you're ready, you're ready and you want it now! It's so hard when our bodies don't cooperate. 

Sparkle - Your chart looks great! Another temp like today's and it will be triphasic! So hopeful a BFP is in the works for you! All your symptoms sound so promising. I would probably use a FRER if you do test tomorrow! 

mamacatsbaby - GL staying zen. You can do it! 

Nova - I hear you on the anxiety! Testing day will be here so soon!

Lida - Ugh on the BFN. Grr. Your DH is too funny! I hope you get your answer soon and it's a BFP!

AFM - 8 DPO today. Getting there! Temp the highest it has been but the kids were up some last night so I think the stretch before I temped was right at 3h so not sure if that contributed. I'd like to think it's the beginning of my chart being triphasic! I had some light cramping yesterday. Also felt like my boobs were getting sore last night, although they feel better today. Bummer. We shall see. Still feeling generally pretty zen, although the crazy is creeping up on me! I wish I felt more pg so I could be more positive but we'll see.

Lots of babydust all around this morning!! 

[dahlia810]

I used FRER's yesterday and this morning *grumblegrumble* I'm thinking that yesterday's must have been a stupid evap... I'm going to attempt to stay hopeful though. I mean, my period isn't due til wed or thurs, so it's still fairly early. My nips are sprouting those tiiiny little whitish/yellowish bumps I mentioned before (I think serena or sparkle said they're called montgomery's glands??) But I've never noticed them before yesterday. I also am still having a LOT of creamy cm that sometimes just gushes almost. Super grody. I hope I'm not turning into a circus sideshow for no reason lol.

I'm really sorry for being such a grumpy downer this morning, everyone. I just needed to get out my frustrations; thanks for listening!!

Sparkle, I am SOOOOO hopeful for you!! I hope you get your sweet little bean this month! Good Luck and baby dust!

Katie, Thanks for the support :) I hope your temps mean good things for you this month! When do you think you'll test?

Nova, thank you for the baby dust wishes! I'm expecting my period around wednesday too, maybe we'll both have our bfps then! Sending baby dust your way as well missy! :)

Blonhrt, I'm 11dpo today.. Feeling a little crampy, which I've had off and on since 4 or 5 dpo. I'm hoping that these dull achey cramps are a good sign as opposed to just my period coming... They feel like they radiate into my legs every so often, and just come and go, but are sometimes accompanied by a surge of creamy cm. Happened yesterday in line at the grocery store. Fun stuff lol.

Lida, Good luck this month!!

[dahlia810]

Beatifulcanvas, I'm sorry AF came :( Take good care of yourself! I bet you'll get your bfp next month! :) *hugs*

[katiecornflakes]

Dahlia - I hope all those symptoms just mean your BFP is coming! I'm trying to wait until Sat to test since AF is due Friday. I hate testing and getting AF later in the day. The worst. Of course the progesterone could keep AF away, although it never has in the past so we'll see. If I continue to be symptom-less then it will be easier to wait, I guess!