Originally Posted by 1babysmom
Okay, sorry to jump in here and whine (or at least just vent...) without having read/responded to any other posts....but I'm hoping someone can relate.
I feel HUGE. Like, MASSIVE. I don't think I look as big as I feel when I see my belly pics (26 week pic here), and seeing that I'm not too far ahead of my 2nd pregnancy size (my 3rd was my BIG one) made me feel a little more normal, but I feel big enough that it makes me nervous to anticipate further growth over the next trimester. Like, physically, I feel like I'm already at term. I can't imagine that people don't see me as "house sized" already, because it sure feels that way. I've had some serious growth spurts over the last month. Ridiculous ones, really. In a matter of 24 hours it- the SECOND growth spurt, mind you- was noticeable enough hubby and myself both looked at my belly and said, "WOW, it's getting really big."
And I think size alone wouldn't be as big of a deal if it weren't coupled with weight. I have seriously already neared 30lbs. Granted, I have gained about 45lbs with each baby (from big to small, while I was healthy or unhealthy, while working out regularly or being lazy...it just hasn't mattered), but as I've already whined about enough on here since this DDC started, my weight gain this time was TOTALLY different and I gained like 10lb immediately, which has never happened to me before. And I'm really trying to keep my weight reasonable, but now I feel like there's no way I can stay within my "regular" weight gain this time if I'm already 5-10lbs ahead of where I'd usually be at and it is proving to be SO far out of my control. And with the growth spurts, I've put on like 10lbs in 5 weeks. Yeah. And the last couple weeks I've been really working on my water intake, and I've been effortlessly downing like 80-100oz of water on average, so I HOPE I can blame that for some of it, but I've gone up like 3-4lbs just this week. My records show that this is the same time I've gained the most with ALL my pregnancies, and then I started to level out (for a SHORT time) after 26 weeks, so I'm hoping I'll at least follow that trend, but I have yet to see it slowing. I've been working out regularly up until recently when my SPD has begun to rear it's ugly head quite viciously (though I am happy to have held it off as long as I did this time, that's quite an accomplishment!!!), but even now where I'm very limited in what I can do I'm trying to push through it to keep moving. But still...not seeing it affect me on the scale is defeating.
So size/weight...it's just sort of freaking me out and I don't know why- not like intuitively, just depressingly. My fundal measurements are right on the dot, so I know I can't be TOO huge. My pressures are great. My urine is good (I get some trace proteins sometimes but that's really common during pregnancy and it reminds me to stay on top of my hydration). I have no swelling whatsoever. My BGL's are awesome, and despite having a cuh-rapppy diet sometimes, I try to be careful about what I eat. My thyroid antibodies are still under control. I know I'm still struggling with candida, and I'm continuing to work on that, but there's only so much I can do about it during pregnancy. I have been drinking a TOOOON of water as I mentioned, so I'm well hydrated.
But I wonder if it's just a mix of a few things- 1) that no matter how hard I've tried, I haven't been able to feel in control of my weight anymore and that scares me because with the way my body has changed since DS was born (with the Hashi's), weight is now a struggle and not knowing how or IF I will lose any this time around weighs heavily on my mind. 2) that I worry about another big baby...DS's birth wasn't "bad" by any means, he was nearly 10lbs but his 15.5" head (which must be a paternal genetic requirement LOL) held me up a bit, still nothing I wouldn't be very willing to do again...but I guess I worry that FEELING so huge indicates a giant baby in there that I caused somehow, like on a Christmas treat binge or something. I know, I know...but still...I think it's just the unknown and imagining an already 10lber in there or something.
So I guess it mostly comes down to the weight, not necessarily my size alone. It's stressing me out enough, though, that I'm moving my u/s up to a closer date. Normally I get one at about 32/33 weeks, at the point where I can get a *fairly* decent idea of how things are going to be for the remainder of the pregnancy (obviously nothing is set in stone, but it's a better idea than guessing blind), but before the baby is too big to be able to accomplish that well. However, I'm thinking I'm going to try to get in in 2-3 weeks (so around 28-30 weeks or so) instead, because I think it will ease my mind SO much just to have a peek and an idea of what's really going on in there.
If anyone took the time to read that, wow...I applaud you and appreciate your time. :)