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Taking The Scenic Route to a BFP - Winter/Spring 2013 Edition - Page 61post #1201 of 15195/5/13 at 11:43amHi All! I'm finally on my computer so I can really post! Daurelia- I'm so sorry. Your post made me cry because I so know that feeling. HUGS! Chrissy- I can't seem to find your explaination of what is going on with DS...It's definately good to get a diagnosis. Who initially diagnosed him and are you doing testing? I'm a psychotherapist and I'd love to hear what you're doing? SKJ- I was 13 dpo when I got the 20. I really think I implanted at 10 dpo because I looked back at my chart and I had a dip that day. Sooo amazing that you got to see your little one kicking around. I pray mine sticks so that I can see that! Sila- They actually haven't told me about my progesterone level which I find odd. I am going to ask on Monday. I am on a 200mg of progesterone a day still. Hope you are doing well cooking that little amazing bebe. I'm so sorry about your friend. That is awful...hugs to you and her! TF- Sending lots of good vibes your way! Sounds like you are getting all prepared for the transfer!! Yay for junkfood. Chourd- How are you? I see you supporting so much but not hearing much about you...you doing ok? Jpack- Go Rouge! I love it. Sending you lots of good vibes. Did you ever get your call with more info? Indie- Sending you lots of positive thoughts and energy. I hear you on the margarita! It is so hard not to worry even though it's pointless. I am praying things go well for you tomorrow!! Hi Ms Dolphin and Sherry! Hope you are having a good weekend! AFM- As I mentioned before I did my first beta 13dpo-20. The second was 15 dpo(friday) and it was 45. That was also the day AF was due. I am so happy that it doubled but I am still so nervous. Definitely having some strange cramping (does not feel at all like AF cramps) but no spotting or bleeding. I haven't heard from RE yet since my blood was drawn after they closed. I cheated and asked to have my own results from the lab I was too freaked out to wait all weekend. Im assuming that I will have another test soon. Any thoughts, advice, anything? I am really wondering if I implanted on 10dpo because I had a temp dip. Hoping this is my sticky take home baby! My HPTs keep getting darker so I will take that as a good sign. Once again much love to you all! Thanks for all of your support. It's so hard to talk to other people about all of this. They think oh your FINALLY pregnant lets plan for happy ever after and don't really understand the side of life that so many of you have endured. For right now I am going to be happy and positive because it has never happened before!post #1202 of 15195/5/13 at 11:44ampost #1203 of 15195/5/13 at 3:51pmThread Starter
Thanks for the thoughts for my friend. I still feel really angry that this happened...
Jpack - Honestly, things sound like they are going so perfectly to me! It sounds like my cycle. Things move slowly at first, but they will grow! They look different because you have so many smaller ones that they are hiding behind each other. 16 is too small, Tuesday sounds good to me! I was on 75ui pretty much my whole cycle, I think there was one day he had me go up to 100, and down to 50 and even the day before triggering, nothing. I think my RE said on Follistim he wanted my follicles closer to 20 to trigger. I can't remember though...I would have to go back and check because I didn't write it down anywhere than here...
MsDolphin - Hi! We miss you!
Indie - Thanks for the update! Really really hoping this is it for you! What else can you do that will help you relax? I've been reading a lot...
Adiejan - Any news? Thinking of you!
ETA: Adiejan - Awesome, it doubled! Definitely ask about the progesterone! I think after 3 normally doubling betas the next thing is to wait until things get big enough to see something in there. That is how it is at my clinic. The cramping, even painful cramping is normal. But scary! I think the worst of it lasted until sometime after reaching 5wks.
SKJ, Chuord, ToothFairy, Chrissy, HI!post #1204 of 15195/5/13 at 4:01pm
I actually made it to the computer, thinking it would be faster (so not... as it needed a restart)
Jpack - so glad that it was just like SKJ, Sila and TF said - so much extra growth over those few days! fx that O holds off until you are ready for it... however I'm with you I'd keep using the opk's just in case.
MsD - nice to hear from you, how are things with you?
Chrissy Sherry, how are you girls travelling? Any thing different happening at the moment? Chrissy have you managed to find some support for your son? It seems like you are having to spend so much longer searching than you should.
SKJ - heres hoping that you are relaxing and feeling pregnant... How is the fatigue and nausea going?
Sila - How are you feeling after your friends trauma? Also how are you going with the nausea and complete exhaustion?
Indie, Adiejan - thanks for the love ladies, its soo much appreciated... and lol no Indie, I had a rather large meltdown 48 hours ago... I was so angry at him I didn't want to speak... then it passed and I again managed to kill everything by letting the emotions out... He is understanding but effortless - except for the odd time after a blow out. sigh. I think the performance anxiety is making him him go all ostrich like and stick his head in the sand... Lol I even suggested not bothering to try and I'd get another pet instead. Subtle don't yah think? Oh well, I will keep working on it, but his lack of participation is really annoying me... About a week ago I offered to go to a sperm bank and randomly get a chinese guys deposit so he wouldn't notice (I can be quite fiesty - in fact that was a work nickname, and a tad evil around the edges) Still no action... so ladies I am having a poo of a time with it over here too. Indie I appreciate what you said, but as you can see from above - so not a heroic figure in the taking the reverses lol, its just despite the bad there are so many good things in my life that I am so blessed with and grateful... I can't stay cranky forever. (though I do try at times!)post #1205 of 15195/5/13 at 5:11pm
Sila- I'm so sad for your friend, it really pulls at my heartstrings to hear these things happen... I can't even imagine. So hard to trust in the abilities of your body when there are people all around us experiencing those things you only ever 'hear' about. Keep trusting in yourself and your body & we will all try and do the same, even through the angry unfair times of those around us. When is your midwife appointment to start looking for heartbeat(s)?
SKJ- Hope that you're starting to feel better & get more relaxed as you head into the 2nd trimester. Goes by fast for all of us watching you but I know in your shoes it feels like it has taken ages to get to this point.
chuord- DH and I had some of those ugly moments in the early stages of TTC. Sometimes it takes them seeing your passion to understand what it means to them too. Be gentle with yourself... there is so much emotion involved. You are very graceful in your perspective and really an inspiration... we all have our days where we let ourselves down!
Adie- Yay for doubling! I'm glad you asked them to contact you with the results. Waiting a whole weekend would be excruciating! At my clinic the 3rd beta is 4 days later so probably Tuesday. Praying this is your sticky baby.
jpack- Go rogue! I'm not sure what you have in mind but sometimes you just have to take control. Are you talking about trying to push everything to get to an IVF transfer or just a few good eggs? I feel like I'm having deja vu... We need to catch up!
MsD- Nice to see you are still around with us! What is the update on you though?!
indie- Keeping everything crossed for you tomorrow and I've been thinking good thoughts and energy to your growing eggs all day. Everytime I see something beautiful I send out good thoughts to all of you! Also, it's Vienna Fingers I've been eating, like the cream filled cookies, it made me laugh to see vienna sausages because I've never had a vienna sausage. I have however eaten 2 packages of vienna fingers... for shame.
Chrissy- Thinking of you and your mom and your son. The system can be so hard to work with to get the aid you need for your child. My only experience is family members but you really need to advocate for their rights and education. We've all said it before but it doesn't hurt to say again how lucky he is to have you as a mother. How are things TTC wise? Any updates?
Sherry- Finishing up my packages today DH started singing Sherry, Sherry baby when he saw yours. It reminded me of the 'old days'.
AFM- I have my ultrasound Friday to check lining and follicle size and then blood work to check estrogen, progesterone and LH. It is still possible to get cancelled with natural FET if things don't progress how they want them. So I'm trying to keep my emotions and my googling at bay. It is surreal because although I know in 2 weeks (give or take) I'll be getting embryos implanted, I sometimes forget that it is really going to happen and life is just totally normal. It certainly isn't a perfect month diet and exercise wise. Like I said, carbs have been a problem for me and my yoga studio closed so I haven't been exercising. I haven't really been doing my meditations or getting enough sleep either. Last night I took a Jello shot at a party. This must be what relaxing about a cycle feels like, right? This is good?post #1206 of 15195/5/13 at 6:57pm
daurelia - I'm sorry about your bfn. They suck!
SKJ - Glad you had a good appointment.
Adiejan - Yay for doubling! DS was diagnosed adhd by his therapist but the autism hasn't been diagnosed officially yet.
Indie - Fingers crossed for you!
chuord - I'm sorry you're out this month. Hugs.
Sherry - HUGS!
Sila - Major healing vibes to your friend.
MsD - How are you?
Jpack - Grow follies!
TF - Hope everything lines up for your FET.
Afm - I'm sorry that my personals aren't long recently. Thinking of all of you!! On cd9 and that's about it. Still no new news on my Mom. Just waiting for an appointment for her and one for DS. Just waiting, waiting, waiting. GAH!post #1207 of 15195/5/13 at 7:31pmpost #1208 of 15195/6/13 at 6:12am
I am back from my self-imposed, fertility-issue induced sabbatical . I however could not stay away completely from you my very wonderful friends (seems like I have known you all for so long!), so I became a lurker .
You all have been such wonderful people who have given me strength in the most trying times of my life. I have followed you all till this moment when I have now regained my strength and self confidence. I know that if I had come back in here to rant and rave, all you wonderful ladies would have helped me feel better, but I just didnt have the strength to do it.
Toothfairy: I was with you all through and I cried and cried to DH about it all, I honestly felt like it was actually happening to me. But I am so glad to see you are getting another chance at this, and I am fervently praying that you will get to hold your own baby this time!
SKJ and Sila: Words cannot describe my excitement that both of you are actually having a dream come true! I believe that everyone of us here will get to have our own dreams of having our own babies come true too. I wish you both a healthy and happy nine months!
Daurelia: Hang in there hun!
Jpack and Adjie: Blowing lots of baby dust your way all the way from Africa . For Jpack I am chanting the song "grow follies grow", until your next appointment!
Chuord: For heaven's sake woman, where do you get all that zen from?? I honestly need some of that ASAP! I am rooting out for you too that soon we will be celebrating your BFP too.
Gtree: Congrats dear, kiss the boys for me!
Bebe: How are you doing lady? come in here and let's know!
Mindless Chrissy: Hugs hun, the waiting totally sucks!
Indie: I do not know much about the protocols dear, as I only narrowly escaped all that myself...more later. I just want to say do have some faith in the process. I know how hard this may seem but I believe it will work out for you.
AFM: The last time I posted in this forum I told you ladies that my Ob/gyn asked me to keep trying on my own until March this year when we could begin considering other measures to deal with the fertlility issues I seemed to be having. I was fervently praying that I would not have to see my dr. and that I would take in before then. Well it did not happen. I went to see him with DH and he sat with us and talked for a while, giving us all the approaches we could adopt to having another baby. Some of them were less expensive but not guaranteed. The ones with higher guarantee of success like the IUI and IVF were so expensive. I broke down in the OB's office and began to cry helplessly. I could not even think of going through the agonies of the less expensive ones and not end up being successful, yet I knew we could not afford the more expensive procedure (healthcare over here does not cover fertility issues). I asked myself over and over again, what is wrong with me?. The Ob/gyn then asked I and DH to go home and think about everything and come back when we are ready with a decision. When we got home we had a long talk and finally decided to keep trying until we could save enough money for an IUI. Well, I am just really happy to say that I just found out two weeks ago that I'M PREGNANT! I wasnt so sure at first because my cycle had pulled another fast one on me the last time and changed completely, so I just let things be. I am so happy and DH is excited! I just wanted to share the good news with you my friends first before heading to a DDC (but I wont leave this group!). I really cant say how it happened and can only call it a miracle because the day I got a pos OPK DH came back from a long trip extremely tired and therefore we could not BD. I am 7 weeks 2 days today and it all seems so unreal sometimes. I am just praying that it will happen for someone here just as unexpectedly very soon!.post #1209 of 15195/6/13 at 6:20ampost #1210 of 15195/6/13 at 7:58amThread Starterpost #1211 of 15195/6/13 at 9:43ampost #1212 of 15195/6/13 at 3:16pmpost #1213 of 15195/6/13 at 4:28pm
Hi Friends! I am popping in for the first time in a few months, and I must apologize for my unintended absence. Thank you all for the wonderful thoughts and well wishes. These boys make it all totally worth it and I cry every single day because I can't believe they are mine. It is as great as we all think it is. I still have a ton of reading to catch up on, so I will try to do some personals later. Toothfairy has been sweet enough to give me some updates during our words with friends games. :)
Jason and Wolf born on April 22 from 2 eggs transferred through IVF after a cancelled IVF, a lot of failed clomid cycles and a couple of failed IUIs. They surprised me early at 36 wks and were both over 6lbs and healthy!post #1214 of 15195/6/13 at 4:55pmpost #1215 of 15195/6/13 at 5:27pmLucille, that's fantastic!
Gtree, thank you for sharing!!! They are such adorable, beautiful, wonderful-looking boys!!!!! Congratulations!!!!!!!! So, so, so fantastic!!!!
Adie, yes, they are doubling, and yes, they are low. I've been there three times in the last 1.5 years - beta h*ll really blows. There's no way to know how it'll turn out, but having been there, it helped me to brace myself for the worst case. There's no guarantee if your betas are good- I had a blighted ovum that started out low, and ended up catching up and looking great in betas (but looked less good on the u/s screen). I've also had it start out not too low but just barely double. There are countless positive stories that you can find online of low betas turning into healthy babies. Those aren't my stories, though. Only time will tell.
Indie, i don't want to be insensitive if you don't want to share, but I'm sending big hugs and hoping everything went well this am...post #1216 of 15195/6/13 at 7:39pmpost #1217 of 15195/6/13 at 7:59pmpost #1218 of 15195/6/13 at 8:06pmpost #1219 of 15195/6/13 at 8:30pmThread Starter
Adiejan - I really think you implanted maybe the day before you tested and they are low because it is early. A dip in your temp at 10dpo does not confirm you actually had implantation that day. Fluctuations in temp around the coverline after ovulation are totally normal. You're had 3 perfectly doubling betas and that is what is most important! Did they get back to you on your progesterone? All there is to do now is wait until 6ish weeks and do an early ultrasound if you wish.
Gtree - They are perfect!!! I love them! Great size for twinsies!
Update: Feeling much less nauseous. It's great to want to eat and have food sound and taste good again! Minimal nausea is much much more tolerable. I'm exhausted beyond belief. I've napped 2 days in a row. I'll go in and have my P4 checked on Thurs or Fri and then start weaning off the PIO. Like SKJ, I have 4 days of vaginal suppositories left too, so I'm just going to use those to wean off even slower. So, I think we've changed our plans and are going in for a quick u/s after 12wks. I talked to my midwife today and she will be out of town the rest of this month. I could go in and have one of the other midwives give us a listen with a doppler. Research on the safety of u/s and doppler is not definitive. Both are known to be unsafe. The most recent study she had come across was showing that the doppler may actually be more unsafe than u/s and that 1 minute of doppler use may equal up to 30 min of u/s exposure. Since baby is still so small, it takes so time to find the heart beat with the doppler and I would hate for her to spend even more time listening around to make sure there weren't 2. So, I think we'll do a quick u/s and just see the heart beat and see how many babies are in there (no time spent on measurements ect) and get a quick picture we can show our families and announce to them. After that we should be able to hear baby with the fetascope around 18-20wks. We will probably do another u/s around that time as well to find out the sex and make sure there isn't anything we should know about before labor. Also, I'm showing a litte. It's really freaking me out since we have not seen or heard this baby at all, but it appears something is certainly in there. I did not start showing with DS for much much later...post #1220 of 15195/7/13 at 12:14am
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