Adiejan, I am just SO sorry. Oh my goodness, I am catching up and I am so, so devastated for you. I hope you can take some time to take care of yourself. We're all here for you and will listen whatever you want to say. Are you feeling OK?
Lucille, that anecdote is AWFUL. Why are people SO rude about baby stuff??? It is just horrifying. It gets me all in a feminist rage about how women's bodies are considered public property, not private.
Jpack- I think you can get betas earlier if you want, I have found my doctor gets it when I explain my travel schedule to her and she's good at brainstorming the best timeline. Good luck!!!!!
SKJ... oh no. I know that brown spotting in the 2nd tri is totally normal, BUT, we are also not "normal" women and don't have a normal reaction to pregnancy... I'm so glad that you can have an US. Please please tell us as soon as you have information. I'm thinking of you every minute.
Friday night I got my beads. I LOVE THEM. I sobbed the whole time opening the package and reading the notes. I feel so supported and so much less alone. You guys are the only people who really get this.
Had an amazing appointment with the amazing doctor today. I just fall in love with her more every time I see her.
Turns out there was a bit of a disconnect between the nurses and the doctor (this happens sometimes and it's a frustration I know SKJ has had as well). Turns out I will not need a hysteroscopy, and the doctor does want us to try this cycle, she just wanted to try a new protocol. She thinks a hysteroscopy would be pointless because it won't solve the hormonal problem in my uterus. So instead, she wants me to try the Estradiol patch. Very similar to SKJ's protocol (we wouldn't do a trigger yet, that would be the next protocol).
I am relieved I won't need surgery. My brain has whiplash with this whole thing (don't try this cycle! no, do try this cycle!). I'm glad my appointment was today, because my US today showed me a 20 follicle so it's time to "have romance" like ASAP!
Further complicating things is I had an AMAZING phone interview for a job on Friday. AMAZING. I'm a finalist- they are bringing me in again in 2 weeks. I want this job so badly. Right now, I don't want to stop TTC because I don't have the job yet, but if I'm offered it and I'm not pregnant yet, I think I would want to take some time off TTC to get comfortable there. I'm kind of anxious at the idea of TTCing even now-- like what if I get the job, and my first month there I have to reveal, "guess what guys I'm having a baby in 6 months"? BUT, I'm not offered the job yet so I'm not going to stop trying... I can't keep putting my life on hold for things that *might* happen, you know?
If this cycle doesn't work, and I'm offered the job, I'm going to go on BC pills. This way my uterus problem won't get worse, and it also will kind of mentally free me from paying attention to my cycles. Luckily, I have time- my egg reserve is excellent and I'm only 31. But being a woman with fertility problems, I'm apprehensive about taking any more time off this process, so it would only be like a 3 or 5 month break...