Taking The Scenic Route to a BFP - Winter/Spring 2013 Edition - Page 32

[daurelia]

TF, I hope you are doing OK. You've been in my thoughts.

Sila- how are things going now? Any updates?

Mindless Chrissy--- good luck with this cycle! Sometimes those pre-O days are just so slooowww going....

AFM... I'm OK. I'm like 8 DPO and trying not to obsess. I've been having this leaky discharge, which is weird. Also having some early signs of pregnancy (sore boobs in particular) BUT I think it's probably just due to the progesterone pills I'm taking. 

[SKJ2011]

sherry - what you wrote was so beautiful. Thanks for sharing that with us.

TF - I'm constantly thinking of you. I'm just so broken up about what you are going through I'm so very sorry. I wish I could do something to take the pain away.

chuord - Hooray for O! I O'ed on CD 21 or 22 this month. Hoping for some lucky later ovulation.

sila - How big were your lead follicles on the last u/s? I hope your next u/s shows that you can trigger! I'm so excited for you!!

Chrissy - Hooray for starting a new cycle. Finally!

Daurelia - When is your beta? Are you planning on testing? I hope it's not the progesterone and it's the real deal!!

AFM - I think I'm 5 or 6 DPO. I did an HPT yesterday night and it was a BFN. So, the trigger was out pretty quickly I have to say that it still made me sad to see a BFN. Anyways, I did another ovidrel last night and my beta is a week from today. I think I'm going to test on Thursday or Friday. I guess it depends how I"m feeling. I really don't want the nurse to be the one to tell me the test was negative or positive, you know?

I had my MRI this morning and I got a CD of all the images. I have no idea what I'm looking at, but man is it cool. My doc is out of town until March 11, so it's gonna be awhile before I know how bad my knee is.

[SilaMarila]

Duarelia - Lots of EWCM. That's my only update lol! Hang in there! You're almost in the I actually could be pregnant range! What business do you have planned for the weekend? Ugh, not looking forward to my upcoming progesterone fake out symptoms. But looking forward to starting something new ya know.

SKJ - 15mm? There might have been an almost 17mm in there? There were so many (yikes!) I lost track and I forgot to ask. I would love for them to be big enough to trigger tomorrow because I'm having some schedule conflict if we need to do an IUI on Tues...my RE is really picky about triggering though and I doubt I could talk him into letting me trigger if they almost almost as big as he wants. Oh well, whatever happens happens. Woah, did I miss why you are doing 2 Ovidrel? How is the Lovenox by the way? They're injections right? How is that going? I always love being able to see my insides too! Too cool!

AFM - Yesterday I had an insane amount of energy! Today I can't decide if I'm getting a cold or flu or if it's the meds or what! Crazy roller coaster this is. Just to make you all jealous, had a great morning at the beach today :)

[toothfairy2be]

Hi friends. Just wanted to say thanks to each of you for all your kindness & consideration of me & DH & little B. It really means a lot that you all care & understand, truly understand what this feels like. 90% of the time I feel fine, positive, realistic... That other 10% comes on out of no where but most of the time it's fleeting. Night time has been bad, all the pent up emotion of the day. I really do know we will be okay & just want to get to our next transfer to try again. I will never forget this baby but I want our take home miracle. We aren't doing genetic testing after all since it would cost $1800 & our 2 frosties can't be checked at this point anyway. Oh & I had a d&c this afternoon. I understand the benefits of going naturally but I just wanted it over, I needed to wake up & know we are on our way to trying again. We decided on it being a girl after all & named her Coeli (chay lee), it is Latin for heaven & it was the first girls name we both liked years ago (and decided against it due to difficult pronunciation). It was too small to say boy or girl without genetic testing. So tonight I'm watching movies with my mom, spotting & healing.

Sila- glad to hear you're making some progress, hopefully your timing works out so it doesn't mess up your schedule. I'm so jealous of your beach day. We hit 45 today, progress!

Daurelia- progesterone symptoms are the worst! Hope another few days gives you a good answer!

SKJ- hope your knee doesn't cause too much trouble & you won't have to address it because this cycle works. What dose of ovedril did you take? 6 days seems fast to get out! What does the lovenox do?

Chrissy- glad you're getting a fresh start.

Chourd- hope O turns up & you can get to the 2ww!

[Shell77]

Oh TF I am so sorry to hear this news  I am so sad!! I know I haven't been around much but i do  I stalk every now and then

 I am glad you are healing and so happy that you have 2 more frozen babies!!

Love to you ALL

[chuord]

Hi shell 😃

TF - I'm almost in tears as I'm so impressed with your attitude, you have a fantastic outlook... I asked my healing lady about mine, she said I was right and they weren't meant to be with me - but had moved on to the right family... It made it seem easier. Yay for two more frozen embryo's! And I agree with the d&c - sometimes speed is of the essence with healing xxx

SKJ - wow 3 acl injuries?! You must be a total exercise junkie 😃 I so wish I was... I agree with TF - here's hoping this is your cycle and to your leg just coming right (I'm an optimist lol)
Chrissy is AF over?
Sila, daurelia - I think I'm almost in the tww with you guys - and SKJ, indie / who else is at that stage?
Indie, msD, everyone - how are you traveling?

[MsDolphin]

Daurelia - welcome!

Sila - congrats on DS getting into preschool. Glad to hear its going well. I sent my DS first preschool application for our 1st choice in January. Our backup preschool is opening their wait-list on Monday, I have a reminder set to call and put him on the list. He will be 3 this year, so if he doesn't get in, it's ok - will wait until he turns 4 to be more proactive on preschools.

Chrissy - will be curious to hear your ADHD results. Your DS is 4?

TF - I am so, so, very sorry to hear your news! I am keeping you guys in my thoughts and hope you heal up (physically and mentally) quickly.

AFM - been having a hard time getting DS to bed at night, which translates into very late nights. DH gets frustrated and doesn't wait for me to come to bed, which means no BDing. I think we already missed our window this month. Just frustrating all around.

[toothfairy2be]

There are literally 3 teeny tiny infants around us at lunch. It's a small place & they're everywhere I look. Somehow I'm not hungry anymore....

[indie1976]

ugh... i'm sorry, tf. this is so unfair. treat yourself to a cocktail. and some chocolate. i wish i had better advice, but i don't. thinking of you constantly.

everyone else, hi and i'll be back later...

[chuord]

I agree with indie... Chocolate or soft cheese or sushi... And the alcohol!

[SilaMarila]

TF - Cry if you need to. Go home, lay down on the couch with some chocolate and watch at least 4 Grey's Anatomy episodes in a row. That always helps me a little...

AFM - Pretty miserable over here. I'm sick with a cold, and my ovaries are just so uncomfortable. I had monitoring this morning and I have 7 measurable follicles ("That's why!" said the nurse after she asked how I was feeling then stuck the wand in). My biggest one is about 18mm, the rest are smaller. I'm going down in dose tonight to 50iu and we're going to see if we can get 1 or 2 follicles to catch up, but not all of them! He likes them to be 18-20mm on Follistim to trigger, so I'm borderline. I'm going back tomorrow for monitoring but it looks like I'll probably trigger Monday with IUI's Tues and Wed. Wednesday is my birthday so you know what my birthday wish is! Just a few more days of this uncomfortableness...

[MindlessChrissy]

MsD - Yea, DS is 4. He'll be 5 in july. He is positive for adhd and he might have autism spectrum disorder. So it's off to a specialist for that. Sorry your ds is hard to put to bed. It takes about 30 minutes to get ours in bed and that's a good day. Sucks about no bding.

Tf - What helped me the very first time was walking outside and letting out a massive primal scream. Ok, I did more then one but I felt better. Thinking of you.

Sila - Grow follies


Hello everyone else! Will be back later.
Edited by MindlessChrissy - 3/2/13 at 8:07pm

[MindlessChrissy]

Sorry

[daurelia]

Hey everybody. So much to catch up on.

TF. I am really thinking of you. I understand your desire for the D&C and just get it over with. My first miscarriage, they gave me cytotec to make it all happen faster. Sometimes you just want things over and done with. And I understand what you mean about how at night is the hardest because all day you have to work SO HARD to put on a good face, and then at night you have to face your bad thoughts. I am just so so sorry.

SKJ-- no date to go in to MM's office for betas-- they just said, "we think you are all fixed, so just take progesterone after you O and call us when you get a positive test!". I'm like 11 DPO right now but I'm not going to test until near the end of the week, because I just can't go down that road. So sorry about your knee :( I hope you get a VERY GOOD REASON to not get surgery again, by way of BFP!

Sila-- I hope you are still feeling energetic and enjoying the beach!!!

chuord... yes this damn TWW!!!! I am feeling like I'm not pg and would just like to move on with the next cycle already...

Dolphin, thank you for welcoming me! I'm just getting the hang of how this thread thing works. 

AFM. OK. It's been a little crazy over here. I'm really distracted at work and not giving it the attention it requires. Big meeting w my boss on Tues and I'm working all day to try and be more prepared. Also, Friday, I had a horrible relationship-changing fight with my mother and now we are not on speaking terms. I am feeling just like one feels during a bad breakup-- crying, anxiety, etc. It's such a natural urge to want a mom who loves you and is loving towards you and she just hasn't been present at all in my infertility journey. Friday night I was such an anxious wreck I had to take 1/2 a valium to calm down. Do you think that's bad in case I am pregnant? I'm 10/11 DPO. Google told me, a little bit of valium is better for TTC than the anxiety attack it's preventing...

it's so hard to want to be a mother so badly, and yet have such an unsupportive mother of my own... what if I'm just like her?  The last 2 years of my life have been hard in ways I never imagined. We took a break from TTC for awhile when my doctor was figuring everything out, and that break was amazing. Now, I'm back to the nervous wreck I was before.

I'm 10/11 DPO and I'm not going to start testing until Thurs or so. Last time we were actively TTC those damn tests made me crazy, and I know once I start testing it's going to become obsessive. 

[SKJ2011]

Daurelia - I'm so sorry about the situation with your mom. As you know, I'm estranged from my parents, so I can definitely relate to how horrible it feels. I know too how it feels to worry that you will be the same parent. However, I now know how different it is to parent your own child. You will be a WONDERFUL mother. The fact that you are worrying about it is proof. I'm so sorry that she isn't able to be there for you in the way you need her to. I don't know what it is about IF, but it just really f*cks with relationships. I have a whole new set of friends as a result of IF. My mom friends just couldn't figure out how to be supportive. Of course, having difficulty with the relationship with your mother is in a whole other ball park.

As for the valium, I wouldnt' worry about it. I agree that the stress reduction outweighs the risks. I hope all this emotion is due to the fact that you are indeed pregnant. How long is your LP usually? Are you supposed to stop the progesterone at some point? Also, the progesterone is probably amplifying all your feelings right now.

TF - Ugh. Why can't babies and pregnant women stay away when you need them to? I also did a D&C. It was the right thing for me. I know that my emotions were ALL.OVER.THE.PLACE after my loss. I'd feel totally over it, and then out of nowhere, I'd be bawling. I think it had a lot to do with the hormones getting back to normal. I hope you have a steadier recovery. Just know that whatever you are feeling is the right way to feel. There is no such thing as too much or too little grief. I remember wondering if I wasn't sad enough or if I was too sad for how long ago it was. That never helped.

Chrissy - That's a lot on your plate with DS. You are so strong in the midst of it all. I'm so in awe. Go momma!

Sila - Boo to the cold My doc said that when you are stimming, to be careful about too much movement b/c your ovaries are basically like testicles, so when they bounce around they hurt a lot. Yikes! I'm sorry you are dealing with that. I hope your scan today showed that you are ready to trigger and that you've got a few in the 18-20mm range. Come on sila baby!

MsD - Sorry about the bedtime drama. I'm familiar with that. We are back in a good rhythm, but man, it sucks for BDing. I hope things settle down soon and you are able to get some loving from your DH.

Shell - Howdy stranger! I think of you often. I hope all is well.

Indie - What's new?

AFM - My stomach is one bruised messed from the lovenox (blood thinner). I had acupuncture yesterday, and in typical fashion, my acupuncturist isn't optimistic about this cycle b/c my blood is weak or something. I"m ignoring her since she's been wrong twice before. I'm wondering if I'm coming down with something. I woke up all congested this morning, but I"m not congested now. I'm so incredibly tired. I'm also feeling nauseous. All of these things could be a BFP, but in reality, I have lots of other reasons. Metformin can cause nausea. I had the hcg shot on Thursday and it's supposed to increase progesterone, which causes fatigue. So, who the hell knows. I think I may test on Thursday or Friday. Not sure. I like living in ignorant bliss.

[SilaMarila]

Daurelia - Nope, I pretty much feel like either my head is going to explode, or my ovaries are going to explode, or both. I layed out/slept at the pool yesterday though. Cloudy and the cold is coming back today boo. Good for you for knowing what's best for you and for holding out on testing. I'm sorry about things with your mom...

SKJ - My Dr. said the same. Boo. I'm not a still person. I feel like I haven't moved in the last 2 days (because I'm on exercise ban now) and I'm planning on taking it easy for the IUI's too. It kills me inside not to workout. I'm one of those people. I've learned to brush off what my acupuncturist says too. Or maybe I'm just that stubborn. Bummer about the bruises! I've only managed to give myself one in my 11 days of stimming. Maybe I passed you my cold through the internet. 

AFM - Looks like I get to trigger tomorrow! Finally! I did only 50iu of Follistim last night and at my u/s this morning they had grown! It looks like I'll probably have 4 follicles that will ovulate (we'll see at my u/s tomorrow). Perfect lining. So potentially 4 eggies. Please God let 1-2 fertilize. Really I could live with anything other than 0 being fertilized. IUI's Tues and Wed. I think I need to go back to bed. That will make the time pass faster too...

[chuord]

Daurelia - huge hugs! I agree with SKJ, don't feel guilty over the Valium - just try and stay relaxed... I can't even imagine what it would be like to not want to talk to you mum (ok I can but my annoyance never lasts the day) I think I'm lucky that my mum had the IF problems, so has been very understanding re my health delays... If ttc makes you this stressed, try and think of anything that you did in that time off that could relax you, maybe a relaxation audio to go to sleep with? Some time at your fav nature place? Skj's right be gentle as your progesterone will be ****ing with your emotions anyway. Fx for you!

SKJ - you take your roller coasters so calmly! I understand about the bruising - because of taking aspirin for my migraines I tend to bruise without doing anything... Dh is always commenting on a new one... Why does your Acupuncturist have to blurt that stuff?! It's not helpful! My lady told me after the fact which day I had lost both early losses - much as I love her, I don't need to know she's that tuned in - lol or I'll be ringing her everyday! To me your symptoms sound promising - especially the disappearing mucous in the nose. Fx you are pg and its sticky!

Everyone else - you are all so quiet, hoping all is well and that you are just busy having a life but we miss you!

Afm - ff gives me O on 1st march, so I just got there datewise, whether or not we got there with action - who knows! I messed up and ended up telling dh it was a not to be missed window - I ended in tears and felt in attractive from his lack of 'need' and although we made up and were romantic - his performance was less than complete 😞 so here's hoping I got something! I guess I'm just going to join you ladies and search for every hint I could be pg... Let the symptom spotting begin!

[MsDolphin]

Good luck Sila! Will be thinking of you.

[chuord]

Sila we must have cross posted! Woohoo for 4 eggies! Sorry about the resting up thing - frustrating... I've been trying to take it a little easier myself - it can't hurt right?!
Fx for tomorrow, hope you get all the embryo's that you want xxx

[bebelove]

TF, continuing to think of you and send you warm thoughts. xoxo