Hi all 😄 apologies for being less than present... I've accepted the fact that for me if I don't step off the obsession pedal this ttc thing is not going to work... So I'm trying to not temp lol (how pathetic is that?)
SKJ - I agree with Jpack, while I totally get the not relaxing, you feel so pregnant 😄 I totally have my fx that this is your miracle take home trauma free baby! Hopefully when you get well into second trimester you will be able to enjoy your experience with peace - I truly hope so...
TF - it's like they sent out a bulletin to all/any pregnant/new mums that either live near or know you to come and plague you! This has been such a sucky time for you in more ways than it should have... Sounds like you need dh to either crack open a nice bottle with dinner, or take you out somewhere nice... (I read that until implantation it's fine to have alcohol in moderation) treat yourself every time this stuff keeps happening, huge hugs and happy energy...
Indie - are you still in HK? Lost maybe? Lol
Daurelia - I get you, I think I'm having a rough trot too, then I get a refresher from these girls on their stories and I feel way impatient by comparison... Fx to relaxing being patient and it all happening well - for everyone!
Sila - I'm still hanging for more results... Soo living vicariously thru you and SKJ!
Bebe, Gtree, Chrissy, shell - hi there 😄
Ok after last week before AF, and my complete freak out (full body shaking, sweating, tears) at the thought of BEING pg I realized I still had stuff to clear either emotionally or physically... So kinergetics on Wednesday,.. Wow! I'm like a freakin onion - layer after layer of traumas and issues hopefully this is it... I'm sorry to mention this bit here but the root cause was my termination, I was soo disappointed in myself at having screwed up I subconsciously decided I was a failure, a moron and I was so repulsed and horrified (although apparently not strong enough words for the emotion) I rejected my body, apparently didn't care if it was alive or not... My Dizzyness was from a heart wrenching imbalance, and I'm assuming the physical problems from the last 5 years would tie into the decision to try to conceive. I'd also had a block on sexual pleasure, and definitely a mantra saying 'boys sperm is evil don't let it in' (if it hasn't been causing me so much trauma you could almost laugh) That's 15 years of that, of course I need to wear the correction for a while to really feel the difference, but instantly I felt tapped into my old energy levels, and felt like my body and I were coordinated... Moving muscles even feels more personal... I went to the mega shopping centre to get some stuff for dh and couldn't stop smiling at everyone (I'd been avoiding smiling at men) lol to the point that some guys looked terrified and I ended up laughing - but couldn't stop smiling. I'm hoping that I continue to feel happier about myself... I wanted to share because I've done counseling and its great, but I've found out thru kinergetics that its the subconscious that is like the background computer program, it also holds and prevents against recurring pain, until I started to reprogram I couldn't heal, sorry to go all preachy... I just want all of you most special ladies to get your babies ASAP - and anything that may help is fab in my mind.