I know I should be using these last few weeks to concentrate more on my husband and other 4 children, before I'm wrapped up in oxytocin/prolactin induced baby-love. What I am wanting to do more than anything, though, is just go away. I am tired of people asking me how I'm feeling, tired of my kids asking at every contraction if it's time to go to the hospital- or commenting every day about how THEY are getting impatient and just want the baby here (my 15 year old got an earful after saying that twice in one day!!!). I have hit the point where I've just given up that this baby is going to come, and I don't even hit 38 weeks until Tuesday. I've never gotten to this point this early. Maybe it's because I had to have preterm contractions stopped twice and we thought this baby was coming early, or maybe because everyone has assumed, and I had hoped desperately, that the baby would come before I have to return to work on Monday.
Whatever the reason, I just want to crawl into a hole so I can be pregnant forever by myself. I'm already planning that when I do go back to work on Monday, I'm going to just eat lunch in my classroom, and not in the teacher's lounge, until either the baby comes, or my maternity leave starts on my due date. I want to walk the halls in school as little as possible so I don't have to deal with people's comments about the baby not being here yet- and, frankly, just not have to deal with or talk to them at all.