Hugs to you mama! I know this is a very difficult time and everything seems so tough. Getting used to you new life can be hard for some people. You're not alone in this though. Is there other mom friends you can connect with? Sometimes having a conversation with someone else makes you feel human again. Is it possible to plan a date night at home with you and your boyfriend while the baby sleeps? Sometimes, especially in the beginning, it was the little things that meant the most. Cuddling on the couch during a tv show or just sitting down and talking about our day helped a little. Everyone is learning how to adjust right now, you'll find your new groove! I know it.