Kel, you're right that it isn't doing any good to worry about it - but I can totally imagine being very worried! When I have situations that I can't do anything about like that (and I've definitely had some) sometimes it helps to let myself worry about it for a set amount of time - and then make myself do something else. (((hugs)))
Good luck, hotsauce!
Esp, hope you get a break in the weather soon!
I am feeling all stressed out this evening after our first trip to the doctor . . . I wish I had a doctor who didn't stress me out and who I didn't stress out. I think this office is better than some in that they are *trying* to accept my choices, but it kind of stresses them out that I'm not doing things 'their way'. Today I got the vax talk, the co-sleeping talk, and the vitamin-D talk. Ugh. I am an experienced, confident, well-researched, educated mom and the choices I've made about these things are rational and reasoned. The 'talks' were mild compared to what I hear other moms describe, but still . . .. No, I am not going to take pertussis vaccine in case I expose my baby. No, it is NOT more dangerous re: SIDS to co-sleep! No, I am not worried that my light-skinned baby who will spend LOTS of time outdoors as soon as it's a little warmer will get rickets. Bah. Also, he tried to freak out about her head circumference. After re-measuring he realized that actually it's in the 30-somethingth percentile, same as her weight so is 'probably okay' - but jeez. He had just examined her and seen a totally alert, content, healthy baby. I do have some sympathy for the guy - I am, after all, pretty much refusing to let him do anything he thinks he's supposed to do - but I just don't want to deal with it right now.
Big breath. The good news - she's gained 2 lbs and grew 1.5 inches at 1 month :-) And despite the doctor's attempts to find something to treat, is perfectly healthy.
Things here in general are gearing back up - and I'm trying not to get overwhelmed. DH's work schedule is picking up a little, DS1 is starting indoor soccer, our homeschooling co-op started this week, and I'll be going back to work (part-time, baby will be with me) week after next.