Trish brought the puppy over on way to taking it home. They spent their first night in their new place last night, I think. (I haven't checked to see if they are here but there were clues that Ryan had at least come here for a little bit last night after work.) It is very cute. Of course, I think that means we are stuck with Ryan's cat. :/
I think Dylan's fever has broken. He's still coughing and clingy but he doesn't feel hot any more.
I'm not sure what's going on with my cycle. I'm on what I thought was 13dpo with no
. Last cycle she showed at 10dpo. I started getting what looked like ewcf on Monday. So, either my lp is lengthening (which is a good thing, I guess) and the ewcf is just my progesterone dropping because
will be here soon or I never Oed. My normal lp before was 12 or 13 days, I think, so this may be my body getting back to that. I find it hard to believe I never Oed because I had all the symptoms of being in my lp and I stayed dry/sticky for 10 days. That's a long time to go for my body to reset in order to try to O again. I don't like being on high alert for
to possibly show. It's times these when I wish I could temp.
When Ryan gets all of his stuff moved out and we get his room cleaned, we'll move Ethan in there. Then we are going to try to get the boys to sleep in their own rooms. I'm trying to get Sean to do more to get the boys ready for bed. I don't know what he was thinking but he would just come home and sit in the living room until he couldn't stay up anymore and then go to bed, leaving me alone to try to get everyone else in bed. Then he would complain about everyone being up too late and blah, blah, blah. Well, then do something about it!
We talked about this at our counseling session on Monday. I told him that I could either get Ethan and Kellen to bed or I could take care of Dylan but I can't do both so he would have to do something. But then he hasn't done anything since then. He was downstairs doing dishes or something until 10:30 last night before I finally called him. If he feels the need to clean the kitchen, he needs to do that after getting the boys in bed. So, I guess I have to have another talk with him about that.
The counselor has been really good about supporting me in things. IDK if it's because she's a woman or if it's because I really do have legitimate issues. Sean always acted like I was just being unreasonable or unfair. Anyway, she agreed that it's not fair for him to get to come home from work and essentially zone out while I'm still constantly on the clock. Even if we were to do the 15 minutes of down-time thing, it's not fair that he get the first 15 minutes every day. She agreed that he does get time alone driving home from work to switch gears while I never do that. She suggested Sean doing some activities with the boys like tossing a ball around or getting them involved in a repair project with him while I get to take a bath for 30 minutes or just hide in the bedroom and read or knit or something like that. That would get the boys completely away from me so I could get some time to "recharge" and it would help his relationship with them. He responded as if that was a good idea.
Of course, I've been telling him that for years and he never listened but I'm trying to let that go. Kind of like when I told him to make a warm saltwater compress to help reduce the swelling and tenderness in Dylan's lymph nodes. His first comment was, "Is this another one of your hippie things?" in a very skeptical tone. When I told him that the chiropractor told me to do it, he said, "Oh, ok."
We have been getting along a lot better. He has been a lot more present with all of us and a lot nicer to everyone, not so grumpy. I am still a bit of a nag. I need to work on that. The other night I started to tell him how to do something differently when he was cooking but caught myself, shut my mouth and walked out of the kitchen. He was saying something to me, jokingly, about letting him do it his way and I just kept saying, "I'm walking away." It became a joke and we laughed and that was good.