Coalifetime did i inspire you to start this thread?LoL i was going to start it myself after you said it. Its so difficult for me to "separate"feelings, everything feels like its all blending together, what triggers an emotion is an emotion no matter the subject, and it seems it only makes sense to me, or not
, but at least i can admit it. My partner is truly driving me mad, i think i need to be with someone else who understands me, like someone aware of psycology! That is normally my worst nightmare to be analyzed but right now i think it would be helpful. I also feel like i can "warn" him to just stop saying whatever hes saying thats bothering me but he doesnt always listen. Its like hes processing deep feelings of his own that are upsetting me, then i get upset and he gets angry or hurt that i reacted that way and it never gets worked out! Its hard to explain. I have been looking into how mens brains are different than womens and it all makes scary sense. Right now it is very bad with us. Sometimes i try to say something like, i want to talk about this, but not until later, almost giving myself some warning and time to prepare for intense emotions coming from him but usually he wont bring it up again. Then i will feel like he really doesnt care b/c he wont tell me when i am ready. Its a rollercoaster. Niether of us seem to handle the other, its bringing out my most patient side and my immature side. I too have been going off to my room and cursing under my breath how MEAN and STUPID he is!
! Its really really hard, i am hiding in the room.again now due to feeling like he ruined my appetite. I told him he was bothering me with what he was saying&he thinks i need to hear it anyway being so important to him. Tonight it was about him thinking our maintence worker wrecking our sink intentionally making it leak. It just makes me feel negative, like my home is being attacked,, but hes so convinced its true. I like finding solutions to things, as i read about womens brains do, huddling together. I am not sure if hes lost it or if he thinks hes doing some kind of protecter like thing? I give up! Why try to understand sometimes , i am going to get my food. But this is really bothering me. Anybody know the AniDifranco song, "Think I'll throw a bucket over my head, and a marshmellow in each ear..."