I feel jealous! I know it's the sickest form of jealousy but the fact that she and I are closer in age than he and I plays into it I am sure, she shunned him for 20 years and as soon as she found out about me and my son, she suddenly wants to be his everything. And of course he jumped at the chance, he has since bought her a car when we DO NOT have the money, SNEAKS out of the house at 1am to hang out with her, and constantly lies to me about their "relationship." I feel completely betrayed and pissed!
I love him immensely and never in a million years thought I would feel like this. But I feel alone and like he has suddenly started giving me and our son the shaft since she has conviently come back into his life.
I want to like her. But she constantly asks him to come hang out alone and not invite me. And he obliges every time. He works 12 hours a day 6 days a week and I feel like he needs to spend most of his off time with myself and his infant son who needs a role model of a man. When I address these issues with him he says I am just habitually jealous and ridiculous. My retort is that he perpetuates this jealousy with his actions,
I have since started drinking late at night after my son is asleep and smoking cigarettes. Two things I SWORE I would never do again. But I also lonely and confused I don't know what to do.
I guess I don't know what my question is. Just curious to see if I am not alone in these disturbingly jealous feelings...