Wendy and Callie, born Jan 4, 2013
Do you feel comfortable with/ are you happy with your birth experience?
I wish it hadnt happened so early -that they'd baked for a few more weeks :) I'm happy with my birth, but I do feel like I was a big, huge baby after birth. I should have just let my nurses and friend to a good fundal massage on me so that all the clots came out immediately. I really hate not being in control of every.single.thing, and it was hard for me to deal with my body having the upper hand on me for several hours after the labor and delivery was over and done with.
How are things going with your LO?
Wendy has gained 1 lb, and Callie has gained 1 lb, 2 oz above their birth weights. They had both lost over half a pound at 4 days old, so their total gain has been around a pound and a half in the past three weeks. Wendy is weighing in at 5 lbs, 10 oz and Callie 5 lbs, 8 oz. So, they are both still teeny tiny. They are regulating their own temperatures now, as well as beginning to kind of "wake up" and look around a little more. They are both sleeping in their own cribs, with the apnea monitors that we were sent home with (we have had a previous SIDS loss), and that is going pretty well. Very few false alarms.
How is nursing/feeding going?
Not too well. Both babies are still not really nursing. As preemies, they just could not latch at birth, and they are being bottle fed my pumped milk, which means Im spending hours and hours and hours at the pump every day. I hate it. I cant wait until they are weighing a little more and we can really work with them to get them on the boob. Right now, they are still so small and they get so exhausted trying to nurse, that they wind up falling asleep at the breast or burning more calories than they are consuming. So for now we are keeping them on scheduled bottled feedings. They are eating 3-4 oz of breastmilk every 4 hours, it's the same schedule they were on in the nicu. Since they are gaining weight at such a rapid rate, I cant really argue about it right now.
How are you feeling, both physically and emotionally?
I had no tearing, and the babies were fairly small, so physically Im feeling great. I have some stretch marks on my belly that Im not crazy about, but it's a small price to pay, right?. I have lost all the pregnancy weight, but Im still holding on to about 20 lbs from my past two pregnancies that I want to get rid of. I still have a small amount of lochia, but nothing substantial for a couple of weeks now. DH and I have been able to be intimate, which was a huge deal for us, since the twin belly had really put me off my sexual appetite for the last couple of months of pregnancy. Yesterday was my late son's birthday, and it was hard to deal with that, but so much easier with the girls' than I thought it would be. Overall, Im much less of an emotional trainwreck than I'd anticipated. I can honestly say that getting pregnant immediately was the best thing I could have done after Charlie's death.
What's going on at home?
Home is awesome. The NICU was a 10 day stay, so now that we are home, we are being lazy and cuddling with our kiddos every day. DH is a landscaper, so he is home right now with me. We have a very small stream of guests visiting us (Espri, I know you are HUGE and it might be an uncomfortable drive, but you are welcome to come anytime!) and it's lovely. We've kept our house very warm with wood heat, and Ive been sitting in my undies a lot because of how warm we've had to keep it for the babes. DH has been a huge help, and DD is adjusting fairly well. All in all, it's pretty good, you know - for never sleeping :)
And, here are some pictures for you:
2 weeks old. Callie on the left, Wendy on the right.
Me, with the girls. Wendy on the left, Callie on the right. (taken today)
Adaline with her sisters the day they came home (the day she met them).
Callie on the left, Wendy on the right (two weeks, three days old)
Wendy on the bottom, Callie on the top
And Brambleberry, just for you:
This is Wendy, the day she was released from the NICU with Adaline's 12'' Corolle doll next to her in the carseat to show how little she was. Needless to say, we've only left the house twice since they were released and both times were for doctor visits.
Edited for poor grammar and the wrong birthdate. Sleep is hard to come by, forgive me.
Edited by Adaline'sMama - 1/27/13 at 7:58pm